No Insight...

[me_vs_myself]

It's sad...

All I do is one of three, four, five, six things:

Smoke.
Drink.
Watch MMA.
Sleep.
Eat at tunes.

I hate myself...

Comments

[aquariumdrink_r]

most people can whittle their lives down to a list like this, but most don't care to be honest with themselves. subtract the things you don't like about what you do, and add things that you can feel positive about. of course it's easier said than done [i have the same problem], but it's still do-able, you know?

[me_vs_myself]

It's like life has frozen. I know it's my own fault. That's why I thought Jacob's idea of creating a list or some loose form of regimen was pertinent me and resonated so well. Unfortunately, knowing I need to do something and implementing it into my life is cumbersome. I do feel like I'm wilting away.

I feel immature and akin to a petulant brat when typing that. I know better. I've been through so much worse. It just seems so perilous and hopeless to try to launch myself back into the atmosphere or out of the cubby-hole to look around.

[aquariumdrink_r]

i don't agree that it's your fault, because fault implies you're doing something wrong. we get stuck in ruts! it happens, but you're honest with yourself and you're open to changing it. don't psych yourself out, you'll get there :)

[me_vs_myself]

I appreciate the encouragement. Camille basically said the same thing too; things happen, you'll endure, adjust and be okay. I know these things, it just seems so daunting. Regardless, You ladies are quite the optimists, I must say - has to be the good genetics.

Well, I am done with work July 15th. I'd like to come visit, if possible. Just let me know guys.