this sucks...all i wanted to do was make something interesting for dinner. i was all like oooh, i'm bored and kyle's sleeping in the family room and i'm sick of the comp. i think ooh, i'll cook something and surprise mommy with dinner when she gets home. and then i realize we have no food in my house. just onions, 2 itty bitty potatos, and ( Read more... )

i got flowers today for the first time ever and they made me happie :o) so if you sent them, thank you. if you know who sent them, tell them i said thank you. they meant a lot and completely made my day.

so i realized being bitter and telling everyone off wasn't going to do me any good and wasn't going to make me feel any better. but i feel like i should leave this here cause it really is how i think a lot of times and how i feel when i'm here. so if you might get angry, then don't read it. but don't give me false pity. and don't tell me you ( Read more... )

sitting in computer apps, bored out of my mind, as per usual i suppose. we're supposed to be messing around with front page but there's stuff i can't figure out how to do, and there's no one around to answer questions since mrs farley only bothered to learn enough to teach the class the extreme basics we could have figured out on our own. so now ( Read more... )

i don't understand people, i really don't. i don't understand how they can be deliberately malicious. i don't understand why someone would deliberately want to hurt another person. and i hate the feeling that i am the target of something deliberate, meant to hurt me. i can handle feeling excluded, and i can handle feeling like i don't really ( Read more... )

sarah my darling are you coming over for crochet lessons tonight or tomororw? i'm getting my hair cut tongiht and mommy has a meeting but i htink we should both by home by 7 or so...or we can hang tomororw night or whatever...i wanna chill before you go...but i'll give you a ring or you can call me and let me know or whatever...talk to you later ( Read more... )

went to caberet yesterday....i was amazed....i'm not quite sure what i thought it would be cause i really didn't know anything about it before i went...but wow ( Read more... )

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i talked to him....and it was ok....so i'm ok again...and it wasn't nearly as bad as i thought and even though he's not ok with anything, he tried to hide it and that means a lot.

i wish i could find the words to explain thoughts....but i never can...not good ones anyway....i'm so afraid right now....and feeling very alone....and somehow powerful, like i can do anything and still be far more than ok....and i don't really understand that...and i wish i knew what i was thinking and feeling.....not even that so much, but i wish ( Read more... )