happened to me last night...I could've said yes, I could've accepted what was happening. It was a big scare afterwords...but I said no. I disagreed and I stayed true to where my heart lies. This is where a man stands tall. That he didn't go through with what COULD'VE happened. It was a hard decision. It wouldnt've felt right. The devil did plant ( Read more... )

please guide me today. Anyone and everyone please pray. I need to feel his spirit. I'm gonna talk to Kalynn Matter. The love of my life. The only woman in my world that has ever tooken the chance to stand and stay with a human being such as me for soo long and share any and every feeling possible together pushing through soo many obstacles as we ( Read more... )

no im ok ( Read more... )

I failed.

And i'm gonna keep praying, i'm gonna keep living, i'm gonna keep eating and sleeping and wasting the days away looking for good times. That's all I need right now. To pick myself up off the ground again...and hope for better times. I love you and it'll stay that way but there comes a time when a person just doesn't want to care what you people say ( Read more... )

I crashed today...my car's totaled. I don't know what's going on anymore because shits hitting the fan. Another test for my life. Like it always seem to happen...it takes one moment to set off a chain of events of shit. The only thing I can say is that I'm still alive. It's just hard to think about. I need help from God right now...I just need him ( Read more... )

With my body cringing on the inside. I never wanted to wake up today, hoping I'd sleep for months on end. Today isn't going to feel good living through I guess...I've already felt like I don't wanna live today lol. God wouldn't put me through such tests unless I could handle them...but im already feeling like freaking out and screaming. This is soo ( Read more... )

Why did this conversation have to strike? My heart just can't take that ever...I don't know how I got through it. The love of my life...my entire being...with someone else? Just like that? When...this wasn't SUPPOSED to happen so quick but yet she wouldn't mind if he asked her out soo soon? They've been together for soo long hanging out but this ( Read more... )

I can't let this place go. Maybe I just need to keep sharing my thoughts ( Read more... )

This will be my very last post livejournal but I just want you to know I've had some great memories left here. Now is the time that I end this cycle of life and leave myself, god, and anyone else reading this just one last entry. Goodbye ( Read more... )