i swear sometimes i feel so selfconcious always feel like im doing something wrong and if someone doesnt tell me i didnt do nething wrong i fall apart and if someone says i did do something wrong i need to find a way to prove them wrong and me right. its getting even harder staying away from weed everyone i fucking kno does some sort of drug except ( Read more... )

last night i was so fukt up it was fuckin crazy talked to shannon for wha felt like hours it was "classy" though. then i went to bed at like 1 had a strangly nice dream where i was with my sister doing big brother stuff lol it was nice then woke up at fucking 5:30 to babysit devon and tyler my cousins but before that i went to take my other cousin ( Read more... )

terrible nightmares last night the worst ones yet i was old and alone and no body remembered me shiiit i hate those my 3 greatest fears i dont wanna live my life this way but i dont do nething to change it i had a even worse day at work fucking everyone was pissing me off i'm scared to go to sleep, hp;d me i'm prolly giving into temptaion tonight ( Read more... )

i saw madagascar oh my good i wish i was tripping during that movie it wouldnt been so fun but its a good movie neways even being sober yuckyness andrew had free tix so i went lol hopefully i made my intentions clear to you. im definatly getting my pirate flag this weekend since i am a true pirate unlike u posers until u've been on a boat and ( Read more... )

well everything came together last night today saw a bunch of people i havent seen in like 2 years chilled with them for awhile then today went and saw unleashed weird movie hung out with shannon that was fun lol she seemed really happy for once. my bed is leaking god dammit i am in the process of fixing it but its hard i hate it well i must be ( Read more... )

i hate this eh ditching me piss off cunt thats the new word i hate drinking now its boring same thing i want to go back to alaska but im scared too its hard up there im too fat n lazy someone give me a book and an enema and ill be happy i need a smoke i wanna go somewhere but i donno where i wish i could fly but i cant so im just like u yes im ( Read more... )

dammit i didnt even wanna go but i do then i fuck up n everyones mad at me now or wait "disappointed" jesus christ i fuckt up i shouldnt of even gone i hate my lyfe i dont kno what the hell is going on im ranting n raving weazil effing christ im out

well an old friend came back and she fell into the same shit again so good bye to you and i've been chilling with a few new people much better than the others ok my brother needs protecting now so im off to regain honour for my family ps. thank god no one reads this lol

love Weazil Christ

thats my new name remember it well

well ive been working 4 10s latly that sucks up at 4 in the morning now arg but neways ive just been chilling cut down on my smoking hopefully ill really quit this time and uh yeah (i was talking bout cigs lol) nothing else to really say i've been sleeping alot but now i got 3 day weekends so hit me up so we can chill i need something to do aye? ( Read more... )

man i swear sometimes i think im permed to hell all me buddies r starting the nasty stuff now time to find new ones again eh i just gotta remember that when all this is over i was only dreaming and my life will be ok work is a pain in the ass now man got me working on lil fucking things i dunno what they are i miss alot of my old friends man and i ( Read more... )