[FIC] Raison d'être - Epilogue [COMPLETE]
And I present to you the epilogue of Raison d'etre. Please enjoy, though it wasn't the best writing I've done in a while ^^;;. Also I wanna say thank you to o0yani0o, for being the plot bunny for this fic, to markieyumeutau for being encouraging and beta-reading this last chapter for me, and to herona0 for being my brainstorming buddy and listening to all my rambling about Raison d'etre. And thank you to all my lovely readers who followed through with this story no matter how long it was. THANK YOU :DDDD. Please leave a long long comment about how much you loved this and what were some of your favorite parts. Love you all and hope to see you soon.
P.S. I still need to edited chapter 6, but it won't be much much different from the unedited version. Though I reached my deadline with 1 day to spare.
DEADLINE JULY 25TH ---> MET AND FINISHED.
1 year later (Changmin’s P.O.V.)
Dear diary,
It’s been exactly one year since that day… And to this very day I still feel empty when thinking about Jaejoong, but it’s slowly getting somewhat easier.
I don’t know how many times I went over it in my head, trying time and again to understand even an ounce of what might have went through hyung’s head before he… jumped in front of that truck. I can’t figure out what pushed him to do something as desperate as that when he had so much to live for. I knew that Jae hyung still had strong feelings for Jung Yunho but to go that far…
Then again, I never entirely read what was in that letter Jaejoong received, so I can’t imagine what was said in that man’s penned words to my dear friend. All I knew was that if I had known what was going to happen, I would have never let hyung have the letter back. I should’ve taken it and burnt it right away; it would have prevented so much pain. It would have prevented the lost of a life and the pain that lost would cause to many others…
But all in all, things came full circle after Jae hyung’s death. A few months after the devastating lost of her son, Mrs. Kim decided to go ahead and press charges against Yunho-sshi in honour of Jaejoong’s memory. I knew it would have broken his heart to see that happen, but Yunho couldn’t go unpunished for his crimes. So the older man was called back from America and was arrested at the airport with charges of assault and statutory rape. Though I felt he had absolutely deserved being imprisoned, I don’t think I could ever forget the shocked and hurt look on Yunho-sshi’s face when he learned of Jae’s death. At that very moment, for even a second, I pitied the man and I came to think that maybe the two of them had really loved each other in that way. But the truth could never be known fully.
A month later, Jung Yunho was charged by the court of law after evidence from the hospital’s report and Mrs. Kim’s testimony was placed against him. But the most surprising piece of evidence was when Yunho-sshi himself confessed to raping Jaejoong hyung. I remember the atmosphere in the court room that day and it had been so hard being there…
Though not long after Yunho was sentenced, MyungHee-sshi suddenly left Korea to pursue work overseas. I knew my mother kept in contact with her from time to time, but I could understand the woman’s need to escape after all that’s happened to her family in so little time.
As for me Jaejoong hyung, I went to visit your grave back in our hometown yesterday. When I arrived there were already flowers lying next to your tombstone. I realized your mother must have come by for the anniversary of your death…
I placed the beautiful flowers me and my parents had picked for you besides the other bouquet and kneeled down to pray for a few moments. I couldn’t hold back the tears as I sat there thinking about you hyung. I missed you so much and I wished I could see you one more time to tell you how much I love you. You were my best friend and my brother; basically one of the most important people in my life besides my family. I’ll miss you dearly and I wished it hadn’t ended the way it did, with you mad at me…
But now I could only pray that your soul had finally found the peace you so desperately deserved. You suffered much in your short life Kim Jaejoong. Too much so for someone so young.
THE END.
P.S. I still need to edited chapter 6, but it won't be much much different from the unedited version. Though I reached my deadline with 1 day to spare.
DEADLINE JULY 25TH ---> MET AND FINISHED.
1 year later (Changmin’s P.O.V.)
Dear diary,
It’s been exactly one year since that day… And to this very day I still feel empty when thinking about Jaejoong, but it’s slowly getting somewhat easier.
I don’t know how many times I went over it in my head, trying time and again to understand even an ounce of what might have went through hyung’s head before he… jumped in front of that truck. I can’t figure out what pushed him to do something as desperate as that when he had so much to live for. I knew that Jae hyung still had strong feelings for Jung Yunho but to go that far…
Then again, I never entirely read what was in that letter Jaejoong received, so I can’t imagine what was said in that man’s penned words to my dear friend. All I knew was that if I had known what was going to happen, I would have never let hyung have the letter back. I should’ve taken it and burnt it right away; it would have prevented so much pain. It would have prevented the lost of a life and the pain that lost would cause to many others…
But all in all, things came full circle after Jae hyung’s death. A few months after the devastating lost of her son, Mrs. Kim decided to go ahead and press charges against Yunho-sshi in honour of Jaejoong’s memory. I knew it would have broken his heart to see that happen, but Yunho couldn’t go unpunished for his crimes. So the older man was called back from America and was arrested at the airport with charges of assault and statutory rape. Though I felt he had absolutely deserved being imprisoned, I don’t think I could ever forget the shocked and hurt look on Yunho-sshi’s face when he learned of Jae’s death. At that very moment, for even a second, I pitied the man and I came to think that maybe the two of them had really loved each other in that way. But the truth could never be known fully.
A month later, Jung Yunho was charged by the court of law after evidence from the hospital’s report and Mrs. Kim’s testimony was placed against him. But the most surprising piece of evidence was when Yunho-sshi himself confessed to raping Jaejoong hyung. I remember the atmosphere in the court room that day and it had been so hard being there…
Though not long after Yunho was sentenced, MyungHee-sshi suddenly left Korea to pursue work overseas. I knew my mother kept in contact with her from time to time, but I could understand the woman’s need to escape after all that’s happened to her family in so little time.
As for me Jaejoong hyung, I went to visit your grave back in our hometown yesterday. When I arrived there were already flowers lying next to your tombstone. I realized your mother must have come by for the anniversary of your death…
I placed the beautiful flowers me and my parents had picked for you besides the other bouquet and kneeled down to pray for a few moments. I couldn’t hold back the tears as I sat there thinking about you hyung. I missed you so much and I wished I could see you one more time to tell you how much I love you. You were my best friend and my brother; basically one of the most important people in my life besides my family. I’ll miss you dearly and I wished it hadn’t ended the way it did, with you mad at me…
But now I could only pray that your soul had finally found the peace you so desperately deserved. You suffered much in your short life Kim Jaejoong. Too much so for someone so young.
THE END.