Today would have been 10 months

[meetva]

If you've ever wanted to push me down the stairs or cut me as I walk by, do it now. I wouldn't even feel it. I've never hated myself more for not doing what I know I need to. That ends tonight. Hating someone else takes so much energy. Hating yourself takes all of it though, and I'm tired.

Comments

[luvhate_tragedy]

don't hate yourself =(

[somuchfunk]

I agree ^. it means very little to bother remembering meaningless dates when the other person didn't care.

hmm

[meetva]

true. it makes these first several nights easier though, to believe that at one time, he did.