That made me cry, man. That's EXACTLY how I feel. Um, I don't think you could have expressed my feelings better through your feelings...so just know you're not alone.
And yes..I do want to die. Yes, I hate chorus and want it to die. (I couldn't even produce sound yesterday. o.o) I hate musical theatre, and want it to die. I'm lazy and scared and I want thatto die.
Except...I was doing tech for Snow White yesterday...and I heard all kids screaming for the actors....especially the dwarves. And I could have been one. And it made me sad walking out of the backstage and not being recognized...really sad. Because I wanted to be the one making the kids laugh, making them wonder and stuff. So I guess that just means don't quite give up. You have it in you, it's just displaced, I believe.
I'm rambling at 5:30.
Keep your head high...one more day until you can crash for a bit. -L
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And yes..I do want to die. Yes, I hate chorus and want it to die. (I couldn't even produce sound yesterday. o.o) I hate musical theatre, and want it to die. I'm lazy and scared and I want thatto die.
Except...I was doing tech for Snow White yesterday...and I heard all kids screaming for the actors....especially the dwarves. And I could have been one. And it made me sad walking out of the backstage and not being recognized...really sad. Because I wanted to be the one making the kids laugh, making them wonder and stuff. So I guess that just means don't quite give up. You have it in you, it's just displaced, I believe.
I'm rambling at 5:30.
Keep your head high...one more day until you can crash for a bit.
-L
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