Yesterdays

[meg_levins]

I came home yesterday to find a card from my sister, Kate.  Inside the card was a letter she had found in a file somewhere at Grandpa's house.  It was a letter from 1993, from me to my mother.  At that point in time, my mother was still a recent and painful omission from my household, however my letter does not ring with too much sorrow.  I'm

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precious...

[colibri29]

This is one of the most precious things I have ever seen... so cheery through difficult, terrible emotions, when everything wasn't black but seemed to proceed on as if nothing had happened. To go on with our lives seems like the cruelest thing to do to ourselves and those we love... To have fun and not feel guilty. To love from a necessary distance.....

I love the stickers...

Re: precious...

[meg_levins]

The "tell everyone hi" part was meant for you guys.

And I remember not only those specific stickers, but physically picking them out and sticking them onto the paper. It's amazing what we can recall when prompted....

Re: Artifact

[meg_levins]

Honestly, I don't know why I was the one feeling sorry. That's something I'll have to delve into with my analyst. But, I do know that it was the start of a flood of unnecessary emotions I've been dealing with ever since: guilt, sorry-ness, excessive worry, etc. All these things appeared that I am not able to always shut off. I think I'm learning though...

No, I don't have the ring and I don't even remember what sort of ring it was. That's an artifact that's lost to time and dust.