The Beginning of Winter

[meg_levins]

And now we are golden.  Gold and brown and sepia and a million other shades that I do not have names for.  Gone are the peaches and pinks and oranges and neon greens.  Gone are the branches full of colored leaves.  Now the leaves fall like a large rain and cover lawns and cars and sidewalks with their unabashed, dead color.  Out here, yellow is the

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filial concern

[colibri29]

You ask some good questions... and you fully expect some tough times ahead... I'm touched by this line especially - "Will we be able to brush off the hard judgments that are masked by filial concern?" All I know is that for people who are accustomed to doing the RIGHT THING, or the good thing, making difficult choices pains us terribly. I know it's a strange comparison, but this is how I felt when I separated from Oscar's dad. I think what kept me together with him for that last while was not Oscar's wellbeing (or mine, or his), but this fear -- fear of what everyone was going to say and how they would treat me, or, worse WHAT THEY WOULD SECRETLY THINK ABOUT ME. Well, I've never gotten over it, and I suppose it's made me a little paranoid/sensitive (depending on my mood