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megajinxed

The Late Nights and the Early Mornings

Mar 09, 2010 23:53

I work at 5:15am which means I need to leave my flat, looking respectable, at 5am. I get ready in the dark or in the bathroom. Sometimes I stumble over a pair of ill-placed shoes or I bump into the bedpost on my journey to kiss a half-asleep Peter goodbye. I embark into the chill air of fast-approaching Wellington Autumn in darkness lit by the ( Read more... )

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I wish I could say something to comfort you too... notyourpoet March 10 2010, 15:20:38 UTC

"I miss the part where his arm felt like his arm touching my arm. The part where his pinky could graze my hand and my body would be at alert that this handsome, wonderful man was brushing against me by accident."

"I guess what I'm trying to say is that I miss myself when I was with Peter for the first time."

You're not alone in these feeling. I think things like this all the time.

For how much longer will you be in Australia?

megajinxed March 10 2010, 20:21:14 UTC

I'm in New Zealand for another few months. I just have to be back by early August for Peter's dad's birthday. The weeks are passing faster now because I work 5 days a week. I just wrote a whole bunch to you, but it was all sad sally. So instead, I'll tell you that Peter and I head to Christchurch on April 1st to pick up a 4 person campervan, complete with shower, to relocate it to Queenstown where we will bungee jump and go to his manager's wedding. I'm excited for all of it, but especially for sleeping in some parking lot in a silly big campervan!

The truth is, I am just getting tired of all the time I have alone because of my work hours and because Peter plays frisbee Wednesdays and Thursdays and all last weekend in a whole different region of NZ to me. I just need to take a deep breath and find a way to fill that time alone with things that inspire me.

Thanks for the comment! And congrats again on Emerson!! I'm waiting to hear. :)

notyourpoet March 12 2010, 18:17:17 UTC

I don't mind hearing sad sally, sometimes it helps just to get it out. The caravan trip sounds like a lot of fun though! Good luck with the bungee jumping!!! I would be freaking out about that if I were you!

I know it's not the same, but Lauren Falcone felt the same way when she and Rob moved to Illinois and then he went on tour. She felt really lonely because she was so far away from all of her close friends. It was part of the reason they moved back. It's hard to be far away from everyone, I can imagine. Good luck finding things to stimulate and inspire you. The poetry reading sounded great!

Thanks! So did you get in your application? If i can get in, so can you! It will be fun to go together! (and it will be something nice to look forward to!)

megajinxed March 12 2010, 20:45:07 UTC

I did get my application in! It's currently complete on the website, but I don't know how long I should expect to wait for an answer. If i don't get in, it'll be due to my lack of teaching experience. I'm trying to be very open to life no matter what. It would be nice to know someone!

nightly_shadow March 11 2010, 16:58:21 UTC

I certainly don't have the deep unspoken connection you guys have (or ever will probably) but I have sort of similar feelings, mostly about the being alone. Because yes, I go out and do enough fun things with various people or alone, but I feel lonely still sometimes. I panic a bit after spending the rare 24 hours with my vampire when he leaves, like I've just been shut in a silent, dark room. It's silly, but...It's also harder that he lives an hour away and works the 3rd shift with nights off changing all the time. I guess I've always been more used to the time apart. And not surprisingly I'm quite the Negative Nelly and say bleh things all the time, heh.

megajinxed March 12 2010, 11:55:36 UTC

Who is your vampire? And yeah, loneliness seems to find us no matter what. We just need to remember our friends in those moments and think of them as close by.

nightly_shadow March 12 2010, 14:37:11 UTC

Oh, my vampire is what I call my current bf since he sleeps during the day and does like blood. He's the keyboardist from my old band. You know, the one who's not officially divorced yet and has a kid....I pick weird, stressful people.
I also need to plan more things with the people that are close by, but I think we're the same in that we don't, heh. I find that sound (music, movie, etc.) helps to silence lonliness. And wine.

megajinxed March 12 2010, 20:43:20 UTC

Oh I didn't know! That's good! Sometimes people have families and things change. But hopefully you make each other happy!

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