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[megaman369]

I just saw Les Mis, good as always, really good, for the most part. Usually after I see Les Mis I have this kind of creative energy just brimming from me, where I want to do everything. I don't really feel that. Instead of just see this vapid wasteland of present and future. I'm considering stopping smoking. It's not quite an existential

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[cowdefender]

i just do
i find a track to be on
then i ride it
i learn much of myself when i come to the end of a rail, or towards the end, i don't always have to leave the rail

[megaman369]

What does it for me, at least for now, is I guess what you could call a sense of satisfaction, or maybe pride. When I can look back on a day and say, "fuck yeah, that was an ass kicking day." Maybe I exercised and then worked on my novel. Maybe I read about something that I've always been curious about. I think a lot of this type of satisfaction comes from doing things that serve to, in my eyes, better myself. I need more of them.

[emaline412]

Lately ... what makes me get out of bed is the idea that if I get fired from my job (not waking up for work day after day), I'll never get out of Kansas City.
I'm glad you enjoyed Les Mis again ... I'm a little nervous for what RENT will do to me this time around when I see it in the movie theatre.

[megaman369]

Yeah, I'd be worried about that.. if I liked AIDS, I mean, RENT. Although I do like a few songs in RENT.

[emaline412]

I didn't think I'd like it when I saw it on Broadway the first time, but it did something to me. I felt a change I couldn't explain and it just moves me every time I hear it now.

[winging_it]

It's interesting you ask this now. I'm kind of in the process of realizing that's missing from my life and trying to find it/figure it out...

[neverslow]

It's something to do with doing well in school - being the one that speaks in class and smiles from my teachers as if I were still in kindergarden.

Also, family (Grandparents in particular). I visit them every week here and I'm really the only one that does (of all the Montreal family). I can tell while I'm there that my grandmother is clinging to me with this sort of desperate loneliness. I never let her down.

Probably the debaters need to go on the list now. It's really the first time I've been fully accepted into an already formed friend group and they're really amazing people. There's something happy about new friends.

That's probably it at the moment... lots of studying these days. Now I'm curious to see your answer.