Me and my fears

[megamuffinme]

I am constantly afraid that I'll end up being one of those people who are afraid of everything. I'm afraid of driving in bad weather, I'm afraid of snakes, I'm afraid of something catching on fire... and so on. I can't stand that I'm so afraid, I'll drive myself to a heart attack. I'm already prone to panic attacks ala my mother, who on more

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[soma_seal]

It always seems so simple from the outside looking in, but from the inside looking in it's anything but! Meaning to say that I could just say, "snap out of it!" but that would be waaaay out of context to your mental state and not helpful to you at all. I suggest being honest with yourself as much as you can and try to be true to what you honestly want out of life. You'll be unhappy with yourself and others if you let those things slip through your fingers. I know it's tough to make those continual steps and efforts, but you find out that it tends to pay off in the end, or at least this is what history seems to let on. It's just like riding a bike, a roller coaster, anything where there's a risk. Confidence is pretty key. Fake it 'til you make it. Once you've made it, looking back on what you've accomplished is like looking back on a cake-walk. It's the story of our lives. I have faith in you, Meagan. Now, you just have to have faith in you! You have to. You're definitely capable of finding a long-lasting, loving, healthy

[megamuffinme]

I really do appreciate the restraint from using the snap out of it comment. I tend to over think things and I think that is my biggest issue when it comes to fear. although, things I should be afraid of I'm not like roller coasters I love the adrenaline rush. I guess I should look at dating as the biggest adrenaline rush out there and try it out.

[soma_seal]

Right on mother eff-er! LOL! Just joking about the mother eff-er part, of course. Yeah, that's pretty much what I meant... although, dating's got a lot more of that deep interpersonal stuff going on that creates it's worth too, like those things you have with close friends (you know, beyond the "high" part.) I guess I used the bike and rollercoaster analogy, because they are things that you had to take a risk for... I can imagine you were probably a little frightened at the prospect of falling down and hurting yourself the first time you rode a bike (without training wheels)... a similar fear is contained in being who you are and being comfortable with that; they might laugh in your face, kick you in the knee and say, "no, I don't wanna go to the dance with you!" Buuuuut... that's the fear talkin'. Tell it to shut the fuck up, cause you wanna go for a ride! ;oD

also...

[soma_seal]

...the "snap out of it thing," I wasn't even considering saying; it was kind of stupid to mention it in the first place, but really I only brought it up in the general sense of when you look at someone who's struggling with something. It's like the impasse where you choose to be sympathetic or not. But anyway... :o)

[bellagoddess69]

Meagan.. honey I love you. When i just read that I started to tear up. aww hunny I dont want u to be alone and you WONT be. You are gonna have to forget the past and be willing to try things. Trust me I have had to go through that. I was afraid to fall in love with someone again because of what happend. But u know what.. your a stronger person after and you can handle more. I think you should just try a relationship! I promise things will be alright. U will live. and U know I am here for u NIGHT or day or weekends or holidays lol just call me! I love you girl!

a quote that expresses how I feel perfectly

[megamuffinme]

"Yet why do we so often turn away from love? We turn away out of fear-fear of hurt or fear of giving our hearts, because in giving out hearts we will inevitably be changed or perhaps challenged to give more of ourselves than we are prepared to give. We turn away from love out of "practicality" - we live in a space too small for love to dwell;"