i got to thinking, all my entries are terrible. i usually write when i'm in a pissy mood, i so i suppose that's why, cause god knows i'm in need of a new journal cause i pour my emotions into it till the glass is totally empty. i'm really not that unhappy of a person. just not especially perky when i don't feel good. like right now, i'm feeling ( Read more... )

so, i went back to the hospital last night, i don't know how many entries i've started out that way, but more than this one i'm sure. i have another severe infection along with lots amounts of pain. the visit wasn't too bad and dind't last as long as i thought it would have. so life sucks on that note ( Read more... )

when you think about my life, the first thing that comes to mind is boring. i'm just a boring person, i now know why i work saturday nights till 2 in the morning, it's becasue the one saturday night i've been off since i started working there, was spent at my house downloading movies on my computer. cause i had no one to spend it with. my car is ( Read more... )

i want someone to tell me what to do wiht everything i do with my life. i want soemone to instruct me how to spend my money, what time of day i poop, how to spend my free time, when to shower, etc. that's what i want in life, for me to give this person suggestions of waht i'd like to do, but them to decide what i should be doing. i think i find ( Read more... )

so, Chicago. i'm gonna start from the begining. the night before brandon and i ventured out we both had to work, he till 11 or so, and i till close, which turned out to be me working till 3 in the monring. which was crazy. we got slammed at around 12:30, and we closed at 1:00 it was terrible. then, to make my life only worse, Russell decided to ( Read more... )

tonight is wednesday night/ thursday morning. Brandon and I took off August 8-13 cause we thought we were going to ft. myers, cause we found an awesome hotel deal, but we waited too long to book it, so we thought we were gonna spend a few days at red river gorge, but no one would take it up with us, so our plans changed again, and i think we're ( Read more... )

so i've been on the period for a few days now, and so extreamly emotional, i've cried every day for the past week, and anyone coudl say anythign to me, and i'll cry over it. brandon and i watched laguna beach last night, and i got really upset that he was talking to candice about how gay it was, which made me feel really stupid for liking a show, ( Read more... )

sometimes i just want to scream

i didn't realize it until brandon said tonight that he didn't want to date barbie, that she is who i'm trying to be. tan, blonde, hot boyfriend, drive a pink corvette, and live in the dream house. who doesnt' want to be her? she's got it all ( Read more... )

today has fucking sucked.