The Stars are shining again

[meganthewriter]

My outlook on life has become better since the last entry. I just have to roll with the punches, and stop whining!

I felt like writing because now that I have a paid lj account I better take advantage of it.

What's new in my life?

- I've started on my next batch of icons! I know everyone must think I've fallen off of the edge of the earth because I

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[ancientwhispers]

Isn't His mercy astounding? I've been going through many spiritual ups and downs ever since I was like 10 years old (I became a Christian when I was 9; didn't take Satan long to start making my life difficult, did it?). I have struggled against the desires of this world and still continue to struggle. It doesn't help that I don't have any Christian friends in my area. I don't know what it is but people around here don't seem to want to be my friend. =/ I really need to start trusting in the Lord and putting Him first, which is difficult for me because I always want to do my own thing. I'm a bit Hedonistic, which I'm not proud of. Sometimes it's hard for me to fully grasp what Jesus did for me. He deserves my time and I don't give enough of it to Him.

I really enjoy your entries, Megan. They have such depth and honesty! Not at all boring. Don't change, okay? ;-)

[meganthewriter]

wow, thats really an awesome compliment. I'm usually a bit bored with my own stuff, lol. Thanks for even taking the time to read! Honey, every day of your life you will struggle with your flesh. Every human being struggles with being hedonistic, and not wanting to put God first. But my prayer is that He teach us, and give us this patience that he is asking for.

Do you have a church family of which to make friends? I understand not being the person people want to be friends with. I've always been the loner, picked on, and all that. But I learned to deal with it some, by His Grace. Sometimes you do have to stand alone, but begin to pray also that He would supply you with some Christian friends, supporters. And He will, also, maybe consider that during this period in your life, He wants you to seek Him out, and if you had tons of friends clamoring for your attention, you would be distracted, you know?

Don't change either, because you have a beautiful heart!

[ancientwhispers]

I'm the same way with something I create! I'm my own worst critic. I'll look at a work I've just completed and think, "Ugh, it sounds so business-like!" or "This has too much romance!" I'm the oldest so I'm a perfectionist and so much is already expected of me because I'm the oldest

[meganthewriter]

I definitely understand how sometimes people in church can be just as harsh an cold as people in the world, and how disheartening it is! My parents are Pastors so I've been able to see all types of things in church that I wish I hadn't. But I know also that their are churches that are blessed and moved by God, and working in God's love. I would def. encourage you and your family to begin to pray for a church home. There are certain supports and lessons that are needed to help you in your walk with God, in church. And I'm praying that He sends you to a church home filled with His truth, but equally filled with his love!

I, too, wish I could sit and talk to Him one on one. But I also know that sometimes when you pray, and you sit and listen, or crack open His word, you'll hear Him, or He'll reveal Himself through people or even unexpected situations!

you have a lovely weekend, my dear, trust in God, and know that He will work all things out!