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Why do I push the people I love away? It must be because I don't respect or like myself. I can't bring myself to accept that someone likes me for me. No matter how many times someone says it, it still feels false. Me? What the fuck do I have to offer? All compliments feel like lies, or worse still, pity. I just want to disappear. I want to go to ( Read more... )

Nah, they don't. Trying to quit. Good luck to me. (pot too)

Yo. I am so goddamned something. Do I pursue Lauren? I'm so sick of being alone. I'm so sick of seeing happy couples and getting wicked jealous. I'm so sick of feeling like an overgrown child. I'm so sick of hating myself. I just want to hold someone close. I just want to be intimate with. I want someone I can share my life with. I just want a ( Read more... )

You confuse me
Tell me you are to be treated with respect
All the while casting inviting glances
My way

You tell me how you miss it
But do you want it from me?
The thought gives me shivers and fits
The thought of you

I need a push in the right direction
I must admit I am lost

I'm still not dead, and living in Kalamazoo. Talk to you next year!

eye'm knot ded.

Looks like I'll be moving to K-zoo in less than a month thanks to the generous hospitality of Eric and Melissa. I'll be staying with them for a few months until I can find a place out there, and I'll be going to KVCC in the fall. Yippers! School. Education. Direction. Opportunities. Prospects. Ahh...

Still here. Still a waste.

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NEWSFLASH!
I was bored. Enjoy!

Really Long Survey (over 200)

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What is your name?JeffAre you named after anyone?Middle name, not firstWhat's your screename?Cid13rud, megathomWould you name a child of yours after ( Read more... )

Ho hum. Not much to report. Mixed emotions as everyone moves out of my life forever. Depressing. Congrats to grad, boo you for leaving. Oh well. That's about all there is.