... you can have a better life, now. open your eyes...

[meggy]

i don't know what jared's trying to accomplish. i only wish i did. i honestly feel like he's trying to guilt me back to him. i know that if he does, it's not going to work out. he'll be happy, but i won't. i still love jared, but i just don't love him as much as i used to. somewhere along the lines, i fell out of love with him. after all, i just

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[shadowpillar]

simple, he's a selfish son of a bitch.
a real man knows when to let go.
From what you told me, everything he said and told you to do were all selfish reasons, as long as he was happy and got his way, things were fine, you had to coddle him and make him feel loved, like some servant.
I'm telling ya, wifebeater mentality. "Serve me, bitch" attitude. I hate guys like that.
He's prolly wondering "how will get showered with love now?"

:/

[lady_laguna]

I'll tell you what I told Kat when she broke up with Chris; you both need to spend some time apart. No chatting, e-mailing, no LJ commenting, message boarding, etc. It's a wonderful concept, being friends after a breakup, because of course you still have wonderful memories of that person time and again... But it's just not realistic to do it so soon. You both need time to heal, you know? Or maybe HE just needs time to heal. LOL.

He may be hurt if you tell him that you want some distance between you, but if you explain that you're trying to spare his feelings, he'll probably understand. If he's got any sense. If he doesn't understand it, well, I don't think he's worth your time anyway because he obviously doesn't care about your feelings.

Kat and Chris, unfortunately, no longer speak. But Chris is an immature asshole who only cares about himself. I have a slightly higher opinion of Nitro :P

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[kait_sith]

Just for the record, I'm Kat. :) And yes, my breakup with my ex Chris was a really horrible one, and it was even more horrible considering the fact when he dumped me it took him almost a year to say "I'm sorry

mya~

[meggy]

i tried it the nicest way i could. it failed. it's like anything he says to me is said with the intention of hurting me. i just wish he'd stop it. either way, i think i'm just going to ignore him for a while, and hope that does something.

thanks~ <3
-Meg

Hmm...

[marinnairuby]

Having been in a previous serious-natured relationship that ended shortly before it got to the altar, the one thing I can say is I agree with Lady Laguna - you need to spend time apart - don't answer his mails, don't answer his calls, don't comment on anything he has to say. The second you break and do so, is the second he starts bringing it all back to the surface after you buried it

mya~

[meggy]

yep. that's the plan. all of the screennames i know about are already on all of my block lists.

yeah. the conflicts of personality and interest were a few more reasons i ended it. i really had to take a long hard look at the relationship, and had to think hard about the future, as i saw it, with jared. the future was bleak, and wasn't filled with much love, at all.

... and, about the rebound factor... it proved to be too much for rogan [ i'll explain more in another journal entry, either sometime tonight or tomorrow ], so he's asked to take it down a notch, because he's still kinda recovering from what his ex did to him.

regardless, this -still- doesn't mean i'm going to run back to jared. i called it off, on that one, and it's staying off.
-Meg

[marie_novelle]

Not sure if you care to read what I have to say but you asked for advice so I'm replying.

First, why did Jared have only five and a half months to find a job after graduating from high school?

mya~

[meggy]

i'll be more than happy to listen and talk to anyone who's concerned and willing to help me.
we always wanted to get together on an anniversary, which would've been the 18th of next month. that's the way we planned it. however, i did as much planning as i could, on my end.
after three and a half years of lonliness, not having someone to touch. to hold. to be there when i come home from work. i'm just sick of it. i still love him, but there's no realistic way i can be a part of his life, at this point in time.
-Meg

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[marie_novelle]

Have you two met in person?

mya~

[meggy]

no.