so a lil update...I guess ( Read more... )

this weekend was funnnnn ( Read more... )

the best sound in the world!
♥

tomorrow is my 21st birthday

but I am more concered about going to the midwife's and hearing our baby's heartbeat...which is the best birthday present in the world!

I now know why I don't go anywhere without Paul.

he went out with some friends at 7:30 and its not 11

and I am freaking, what if he gets in a car accident!?

omg i hope he comes home soon, I miss him

I woke up this mornign and looked like this!!!!!!!!!!


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it's 1:13 am and my baby is awake and moving around

hehe it kind of tickles:)
♥

oh and last night I laughed for about 15 minutes because i gleeked on my own face and didnt understand how haha

Carly, this is for you:)
BABY BUMP!♥

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so I am walking to taco bell with Paul and we get across the road from it on london road and I started violently vomitting in the grass infront of a resturant, people are driving by and pointing at me. ugh so i finally stop and we get ready to cross the road, and it hit me again...so I am trying to run across BUSY london road but vomit at the same ( Read more... )

fuck it
I am ready to end it all

I am nothing but a fucking failure
some mom I am going to be

especially when I have to do it alone

I cant even express How low and depressed i feel right now.
my body feels like I cant even hld up the weight on my shoulders

fuck it.
im done