not much of an update

[meglimir]

I've been too tired and in pain to post much. The pain saps what energy and stamina I do manage to build up. Any energy I have for online work goes to my job and at that it's only 5-7 hours a day - luckily I can work weekends and have some time off left for any week I can't make the full 40

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[silkensteel]

I want to give comfort and warmth.

So I will it in my heart.

All I can think of is everytime you have a time this miserable, it's followed by either relief or heartening information. May the next phase bring you the relief that those who love you, wish for you.

[julifox]

I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

[bkwrrm_tx]

I wish I had words of wisdom, or just some way of making you feel better.

You're an amazingly strong woman and I wish you and Shay could have met, because I think the two of you would have been kindred spirits from the get go.

*gentle healing hugs*

[farmleaf]

Oh man, you are enduring what would crush me. You say you don't have stamina but hon, yes you do. Way more than I do.

It sounds like you have a scorching case of edema. Hopefully your doctor can help you with this.

I pray it is not a tumor.

[revised_06]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad right now. Your doc gives you phenegran or something like it for the nausea from the chemo, right? Most anti-emitics make you drowsy and I don't know about you, but I hate being nauseated more than I hate being exhausted. Hell, I hate being nauseated more than anything at all. What has your doc said about the bloat? Does he/she know how much it's impacting your day to day activities?

I've never been truly ill, I think a bad flu is the worst I've ever had so I have absolutely zero authority on the matter. I'm just trying to offer comfort or something the best way I know how to, which is give unsolicited advice because I'm really crappy and awkward at expressing compassion. Hey, at least you know I'm being sincere when I tell you a bunch of stuff you probably already know!

I hope you feel better soon and I really hope the next round of chemo goes easy on you.