You know what.  I really do love New York.  It's such a crazy place, but there is so much to it.  It's constantly changing and that's what is so terrifying and terrific about it.  There is always something new.  New friends, new lovers, new places to go, flavors to taste, music to play... it's never the same for long.  I've almost reached my 3 year ( Read more... )

 First tearless day since it all went down.  Felt like it a time or two, but never did.  :)  Bravo, Lady M.

Today was tough.  The toughest part of today was having to be tough.  I'm a strong girl - I am.  But having to be strong nonstop the entire day in the face of hurt feelings and those who hurt you is hard.  It is exhausting to look away each time I walk past him so we don't have eye contact.  It wears me out to pretend I am fine and that I don't ( Read more... )

 Life sure is no bed of roses.  Or maybe it is - a mixture of sweet scents and lovely petals, but turn the wrong way and you've got a thorn in your butt.  Yeah - that sounds about right.  Not too much to say beyond that.  I've been looping around all night and all day and don't even want to go into it again.  I know sometimes the things that are ( Read more... )

I've been wondering lately what kind of a musician am I these days....  am I 'good'?  I have been in such a different environment the past couple of years that it's hard to 'compare' myself as I did back in school or when I was taking a lot of auditions.  I'm partly grately for the fact that I'm not being ripped apart by a teacher every week or ( Read more... )

I'm afriad I can feel myself going to a place all too familiar.  Life is cyclical and sometimes the hardest thing is to break that cycle.  I wish to recognize the path that is ahead and to have the strength and courage not to go down it.  I have learned through experience that this path only leads to harm to both myself and to others.  I've never ( Read more... )

Sun come up it was blue and gold ( Read more... )

Talk about taking a vacation.... geez, it's been a long time since I've been on the old LJ.  I don't even know where to start.  Well, I was sitting at the office today and got bored I guess and started thinking about random websites for some reason.  Actually I was looking at clarinet cds, which I also haven't done in forever, so maybe it triggered ( Read more... )

I haven't been on LiveJournal in about a year!  Yikes ( Read more... )

Happy New Year!