(Untitled)

[megmucus]

I'm starting to think about asking to leave early.
I was told day before yesterday it was looking like I was only going to need to be here 2 weeks anyway.
I'm not seeing/feeling much change in my health anymore, I still can't cough anything up but 
all I do is sit in fucking bed, it's no wonder.
I'm getting depressed, that old hospital depression is

Comments

[ohsoawful]

please give it a little more time. i know how much it sucks, especially if you're not really coughing anything up, but maybe you just need to give the abx a little more time to really get to work through all the crud and loosen it up enough for it to start moving. when i was in during christmas i hardly coughed for the whole first week because nothing would move. anyway, i am praying for you <3<3<3

[birdgirl_1107]

hey sweet thing. so sorry the hospital depression is kicking in & you're feeling isolated, bored and lonely. i am guessing you miss Aven a lot too. if you think you can go home without damaging your health, then i say go for it. but if the doctors think there's a chance that staying in could improve your health and get your numbers up for an extended period, then i hope you'd consider it. ♥

[fisheye]

I think you know that's not a good idea. You need to stay there. If shit isn't working, try new shit. Get your doctor working hard on getting you up to par. I wish you were at OHSU so I could visit :( I hope you get visitors there though! Has your little man visited?

[anonymous]

Meg, please know that random people who barely know you at all -- or honestly not at all except through your journal -- are thinking of you and wishing you well. I have no wisdom. I only wish and hope that you will be able to set aside whatever is temporary and concentrate on doing what is best for your health. Does that mean staying in the hospital? Beats me. I'm not you, I'm not a nurse nor a doctor, and i just have no idea. But I really do hope you will be able to focus on what is best for you in the long term, not just what's best for you in the next few minutes. If that means going home, it means going home. If it means staying there, it means staying there.

You are so F*ing brave in the face of all this stuff that I know you will make the best decision-- and i know you are the one who is in the place to know what "best decision" means.

With love,
Mary
Random internet reader