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megsbrightstar

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Jul 03, 2007 13:04

I used to be confused about my sexuality. I thought I liked boys all of my life, but a few years ago that simple preference was thrown out of orbit when I began to find myself attracted to other girls, always fat ones with bellies, and turned on by another female's weight gain. As I grew comfortable with it and because my primary interest in guys ( Read more... )

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joel_mot July 3 2007, 19:14:04 UTC

Some very interesting insights. I think it's good that your view of yourself is flexible. Now, with your friend so full and suffering (and were you full and suffering at the same time, btw?), what would keep you from rubbing her stomach to make her feel better?

megsbrightstar July 13 2007, 02:22:42 UTC

I'm sorry it has taken me so long to respond! Yeah, we've given each other back massages before, so why not try stomach massages? No, the fact is, she would think I'm a freak if I suggested it. Even if not, it would probably be awkward, for both of us. I doubt she's ever even heard of someone giving a stomach massage. Not to say I didn't want to rub her belly though!

Oh, by the way, I was full, but not suffering. I didn't eat as much as her. But to tell you about a time when we were both suffering, one day last week there was a point where the two of us were both struggling to keep from throwing up! We went to Target earlier on in the day and bought tons of bags and boxes of snack food and candy and just ate it continuously, all day long. Ugh, I felt so sick! It was really fun for awhile, but later in the day a sudden nauseous feeling hit me.

joel_mot July 16 2007, 13:36:47 UTC

I guess it's like drinking and being drunk is great fun until you start feeling sick and the room starts spinning. I've been THERE.

And as for the stomach massages, it probably wouldn't be worth crossing that line if it creates a problem with her. Who knows, one day the line might move in your direction.

mistermemm July 4 2007, 07:12:38 UTC

yeah, it's good that you figured that out about yourself; i know all too well that the sexuality of pudgy bellies and outside of that are totally different, but in my case i'm still pretty hetero.

i totally know what you mean about the theme parks; we went to the county fair and it seem like all the heavy people who i don't see around my neighborhood congregated there...and i gotta say, the deep-fried corn dog they sell there is vividly awesome.

gah, another person goes to Disney World before me! getting to Disneyland 3 times in my life still doesn't heal the pain!

megsbrightstar July 13 2007, 02:24:53 UTC

Oh, you'll make it there someday! I have been once before. I vaguely remember the trip from when I was 7 years old. I'm just excited to be going anywhere on vacation.

vinylrider July 4 2007, 19:53:33 UTC

It's cool that you're so turned on by someone you're so close to. And I can see why! She seems to be a really gluttonous girl! I loooved reading your description of your evening with her. I'm glad you're having fun with your desire and not worrying too much. How do you think she would feel if she found out you got turned on when she really stuffs herself? Do you think she's the type who could ever be turned on by eating? Not that she ever has to know, of course.

megsbrightstar July 13 2007, 02:44:05 UTC

She and I are both such gluttons. We have both acknowledged this a few times now. I didn't realize it at first, but I think that one of the reasons we get along so well is the love for food and eating we share. I laughed to myself the other night at a party when I realized that both of us were hovering over the food independently from the other ( ... )