Okay, so here is all that I wrote in my diary while on my vacation (It's going to take me a few days to post it all): While I am on this vacation, I am going to be keeping two journals. The 1st will
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Vacations are traditionally for me the time I pig out the most actually. In the past, I would always see how much weight I could put on while on vacation and then just work it all off when I returned back home. I don't know if you would call it a breather, anyhow. I love eating and gaining so much! Taking a break would be the same as halting fun for awhile. And also, it's not as if I'm forcing the food down to simply make myself fatter. I never eat unless I'm hungry or enjoying it. I'm sure you already understand, but the the joy of gaining comes mainly from the journey/process and not the size once finally attained. Sheer delight comes from every little bite taken; every tasty, tender morsel, first touching and enveloping the tounge with wonderful, delicious intoxication so great that at times you feel compelled to take the next bite even before the first has been swallowed. Then it moves down further to fill your belly with a cozy, satisfying warmth. Of course, after the first joy of gaining, which is the limitless food
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Well, I meant taking a break from lj-ing. But I'm glad you misunderstood me, because of the wonderful description you just wrote. And funny. But I don't think you're narcissistic. You're too self-aware for that.
Ah haha, I see. Well, writing is something I normally do anyway. My vacation was over a few days ago. I am now transposing everything I wrote upon the subject of food and gaining from my journal into text for this LiveJournal. Wait, let me correct myself again: I do actually write plenty upon those subjects in my everyday diary because, well, I write just about everything in there and gaining and food are obviously part of my normal life. But, I created another journal for the trip specifically for things that I would later type on to here. There is no longer any way of separating my gain from the rest of life. Back when it was only fantasies I never dreamed of fulfilling, it was very easy to just have occaisonal binges and dreams of fatness, and keep that all in a sort of separate universe. Now, it's growing ever more impossible to hide, for obvious reasons. Though I suppose I cannot say that this side of my world has completely merged with all else, for this journal I keep is separated from it. And I could never admit my
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