Comments | megsta12: It's gonna be a looooong one

megsta12

It's gonna be a looooong one

Jan 26, 2005 20:28

As requested, here is my overdue update...since so much has happened in my life during the past week ( Read more... )

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I'm here reine_de_fee January 27 2005, 04:31:16 UTC

Hunnie, getting let down like that sucks real bad, but it also helps to know that there are many more people out there who care about you!! Realize that I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to... so keep your head up-- you're a great girl, someone who deserves much better!!!

~Kari~

My darling sister tyler_dirden January 27 2005, 04:41:13 UTC

Someday you will realize that all of the bad that has happened, all of the people taking advantage, all of the cheaters and lyers, all of the unfair and the bitter, will have sculpted you into what everyone in our family has become at one point, a very strong, very wonderful person. I love you dearly and would do anything in my power to take away your hurt, or to make katie see or anyone see how fantastic you are. My experiences in love(and loss of course) have taught me many lessons, all of which i would be glad to impart to you, but all of which you will eventually learn on your own. You are the single smartest, most caring, and most fair person in our family, and you deserve my weight(since your a little one) in gold when it comes to a person. I will always be here for you for support, love, and even just the listening ear that you need.

Just take each day one at a time, and focus on all of us who adore you, and admire you. I know I do. YOU MAKE ME AS PROUD AS ANY BRTHER COULD EVER BE TO CALL YOU SISTER.

I love you lil sis.albie

sellerthenun January 27 2005, 16:47:33 UTC

Hey you, I am so sorry to hear about Katie. I know this doesn't count but when I was a freshmen in high school I had a best friend and she would always steel any boy I liked or any of my boyfriends. Needly to say I got rid of her. I hope your friend will not make this a habit because that is a really shitty thing to do. Just to make some comments 1. I do think you liked Katie a whole lot more than you were willing to admit. When you talked to me you just kind of blew her off. 2. I know what you mean when you say when someone hurts you it is hard to get them out of your head. That is love and love can be the best feeling in the world or it can be the worst. You DID NOT deserve anything. 3. Dwelling on the pain is definately not worth it. Sure it feels good just to break down sometimes but life moves on.
I hope you feel better :) and I'm sorry.

megsta12 January 27 2005, 16:59:41 UTC

First off, I really appreciate the feedback. This is the exact reason why I shouldn’t be getting down on myself.

Comment: I think I only blew her off at the start of the relationship and that was because I wasn’t sure how I felt. But once I got over all of that, things changed and our relationship was great. We had so much fun together and it seemed like everyone had drama except for us. After a while I knew something was up and I kept bugging her because I thought she liked my friend. She kept saying no, so in my heart I really wanted to believe her…and I did. But in my mind I knew she wasn’t telling me the truth. It’s a shame that I let my heart take over on this one. I could have avoided the entire thing if I would have listened to my mind instead.

A few words from Steph sellerthenun January 28 2005, 03:15:02 UTC

I heard and read about your break up, and I just thought I would give you a few words of encouragement even though I am not sure of all the details. Like you said, "everything happens for a reason", and whether or not you figure out what the reason is today or 10 years from now, it will all piece together someday. I always thought of you as a strong person, so I can only see this experience making you even stronger. Eveyone needs to make mistakes, that's part of life and what makes us grow. You never knew how things would turn out between you and Katie, and that was the chance you were willing to take. If you went into every relationship thinking how much the person might hurt you in the end, you would never date anyone ( ... )

megsta12 January 30 2005, 06:06:50 UTC

I think it is funny that the entire lesbian community seems to know about our break up. Damn LJ! Word gets around faster than I would have ever thought. How many people read this damn thing?!?!