well i have been listening to this song alot because every single time i do it reminds me of the first time i ever laid eyes on a certain someone... it just seems like the words fit perfectly... basically if you know how frank and i met you would understand where i am coming from... so with out further adu(sp) here are the lyrics to Madonna's " ( Read more... )

so i started back at work after having a week off... not that bad to get back into the swing of things - however i am still finding that i havent caught up on sleep yet... but hey what are weekends for??... i'm eating dinner right now and all i can think about is how time goes by so much slower when you are waiting to do something... for instance i ( Read more... )

so in the midst of my boredom today... still being unable to keep food down... and remaining on my couch... this is what i accomplished today...


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considering i have been bed ridden since i got home  sunday night i have had an extreme amount of alone time... and an awful lot of thinking time... i also got into a sex and the city mood... that show can really make you think about your life and everything in it...

last night i laid in bed unable to sleep because my back is absolutely killing me ( Read more... )

This years birthday was so much better than last years its unbelievable... it really was such a great day... i think it was so good because i got to spend it with frank... and thats always good :)

Julie, lisa and lisa, thanks for the card, i love it - especially the pictures of how much i have changed... haha...

Laura - thanks for the "old ladies" ( Read more... )

Everytime I hear this song I cant help but think of Scott... so I'm going to post the lyrics up... here they are:

"Rumors Of My Demise Have Been Greatly Exaggerated"

...so please don't ask me how
i ended up at my wits end and breaking down.
pages torn from books we never read,
cause we're plugged into this grid.
don't pull this plug right now,
or then we ( Read more... )

This past week has been one of the hardest so far this year... on monday night I was informed that Scott Chandler had died from a drug overdose... Scott died on saturday night and was found monday in his grandparents attic... I have never seen my brother more upset in my entire life... and who could blame him... losing a friend is one of the ( Read more... )

have you ever realized you have the best thing in the world right in front of you and somehow, someway, you subconsciously destroy it... most of the time your subconscious does this because you are also subconsciously afraid of what this strange over-powering feeling is doing to  you...

i recently tried to destroy something... in fact i put ( Read more... )

after doing a lot of thinking i have decided that sundays lately have been the best days ever... they just seem to be filled with laughter and joy and happiness... and absolute hysterical incidents... dancing, and random songs being made up... i wish every day could be sunday... and that was how my life would play out... with that person who can be ( Read more... )

sooo after having another amazing pasta-roni for dinenr last night i was quietly curled up on the couch relaxing with a nice tall glass of milk and watching tv... when i h ear my parents talking about my brother... i try not to listen because it sometimes brings me down listening to my mom bash him while my dad stands there defending him until the ( Read more... )