good weekend with the sis
and her friends
i puked on the floor
that wasnt so great

god damn
i should not be able to watch chick flicks
like the notebook
its no good for me

this weekend made me realize a lot of things ( Read more... )

im getting tired

today has a lack of smile
and a whole lot of
dazed thoughts
what i have to do
what ive done
what i havent done

i wish i could sleep the day away
.....
im almost 21
thats closer to 30
than it is to 10
and
that scares me too

i want to be a girl agian.

i just gave into
the most wonderful
whatchamacallit
and it was indeed
every bit as good as i thought it would be
i owe it to myself

i also
should do things like
stick up for myself
and
not give up so god damn easy
im a sucker
and i love
everything
thats wrong

the winner was never ment to be me

i missed this
when it was gone.

things have been kinda stressful
being back at school and what not

a lot of shit to do
and to do good

but
other things are working out good for me
yes
lets hope it stays that way

i havent been this excited in a long time.
and my new wall mate
is from milford
and he knwos tim (his cousin)
and my good friend chris
and that makes me happy
i had to walk a long way by myself today
and it sucked
its freezing
and im drunk
and i miss you

last night was a great night ( Read more... )

im fucking tired ( Read more... )