last night i thought and there was a bad result

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I'M GOIN TO KEYWEST!!!!

same time tomorrow
when i wake up,
will the violins be playing?
when my heart finally opens
will you be there to embrace me?

because it's all so crazy now.
it's all so fucked up now.

it's not you, it's all me
as if me taking all the blame would
make you feel much better now.
but all lights burn out.

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today my cheecks where swelled and red, as i wept for, what felt like, the firstt ime. as all my sorrows cought up to me.
i let myself cry to a full and bitter and beautiful climax, i passed out.
i said another good bye, well, about 50 more farwells "untill we meet again"
they were all my "one true loves"
goodbyes, so long, AAW.

i miss you all

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sadist

n : someone who obtains pleasure from inflicting pain or others

sa·dism

The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from cruelty.

everyone! go to xhedos, im gonna read and its my moms birthday, i wrote her something! so be there at 8!

things have been getting so bad. the lies, the memories, the ambiguety. i cant beelive this day. the 4 month aniversary of the break up. i have never wanted to cry so much. i went to see steve, and got lost, after driving an hour, for 2 1/2 hours. then, steve ignored me and almost pretented i wasnt there. so then after spending an hour being ( Read more... )