I tried to see reason this afternoon, i tried. I did everything in my power not to see red or even see anything. I dont understand men, I am not ever going to pretend to either. its just that you would think someone who is suppose to care and love you would know that you are going through something a little bit bigger than them and would try to ( Read more... )

I look back and think how horrible things were this time last year, and for me, it didnt seem as real as it did to many others. Well it has this year ( Read more... )

I am posting this to the one who THINKS he is going to eat MY fucking turkey and ham sandwhich. I will beat your ass. when i have more energy.
ok going to bed long ass ten hour day today.
jenn, call me let me know how things went
nite all

Wondering where in the world I am as i sit here alone in my room, and knowing i should be in bed asleep seeming as i have to be at work at the crack of dawn in the morning. I dont know why I am sit awake. I went for a drive earlier, igot back a few minutes ago, and It didnt really help me any. I just kind of wandered around not going anywhere in ( Read more... )

ok i can understand being avoided and ignored but if you tell me that you want to talk to me then at least dont fucking run online line the minute i fucking sign on.
fuck it
over this bullshit.
night again. bed is looking better and better everytime i get out of it.

OK, went out last night with jon, jeff, and kristin. Kristin's birthday was last night and we all went to the abyss to go have a good time, we ending up leaving there and heading out to the ocean front to a couple of other places that were not to our desire. We then headed back to the abyss, ended up dancing for awhile before we left, so then i ( Read more... )

There is in everyones life one day out of the whole year that no one wants to even think about let alone go through. I guess it is my day tomorrow. Tomorrow is my nightmare in color as you could say. I dont know how things will go but lets just hope that things wont hurt too much.
sleep is calling.
nighty nite all
wish me luck

OK things have been going well in the last few days just been really busy between work and hanging out with jonathon. not that I aint normally busy. Gone out a few times in the last couple of nites and had a fun time. Saw QueenWanda at the banque on wed nite. had a blast, although i have to hand it to the cornball from michigan. I dont think that ( Read more... )

I dont know where to go from here, no way is lit up for me or even aknowledged. I am so unsure of what happened or even how my temper got that far. SO after no sleep and a bunch of tears I am off to work to drown my hurt and anger in to the day to day basis of a dull work day ( Read more... )

There is in every day a moment where you body takes a trip out of your mind. well i guess this is one of those days. There isnt much i can do about it except grit my teeth and bare it. I hate it when i least expect it to happen and then out of no where the feeling of powerless and scared comes over me and there is nothing i can do to stop it or ( Read more... )