"There's a dozen people here and you can cry if you want to..."
One thing I learned today...what that spaz of a moron says in "Sugar, We're Going Down":
"Wishing to be the friction in your jeans/ Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him/ I'm just a notch in your bedpost/ But you're just a line in a song"
...what the hell, man. What the hell.
So long time no live journal. I've done quite a few things since last time.
I...
...died a little
...listened to Erika's someones obsession We Are Scientists.
...been just trying to get by and failing
...listening to the "real" Tallyhall cd
...attempted to get ahead of the game
and so forth.
So it's after 8 and I still haven't studied or done any art or created a thesis.
I hate to say it but I'm at that point again where...I don't care. I watched SC and IY and lazed around until work.
I hate to disappoint people too but I always do. Especially myself.
I made my appointment for my permit test. Why am I such a loser? God, I hate society's standards. So I don't want to fucking drive, that doesn't make me a bad person or irresponsible. I'm a bad person anyways.
I've also grown slowly mad with the amount of time I've had to spend with people. By "people" I mean my friends. I must be a bad friend but I'm just dead tired and exhausted to no end...I just want to be by myself, man. *Sighs* I just want one day where I don't have to see anyone.
I feel like a jerk for wanting that but it's just...I've spent so much time with Anne. She's constantly over, which isn't bad, but...come on. I can only handle one person so long. I mean...I get tired of anyone if you give me enough time.
Auntie Kaylin just needs a break children.
Nothing seems funny anymore and I am numb to everything around me. Maybe I'm just horribly stressed out and tired, but that's how it feels. Who am I if I don't get time for reflection on what a terrible person I am?
Anyways.
Oh! No more musical theater for me! Fuck it. Fuck it up it's stupid ass. I'm so happy.[about that at least].
Well, off to do...things...that I should be doing.
And seriously people...go! Go forth and listen to MARVIN'S MARVELOUS MECHANICAL MUSEUM by Tallyhall.
Especially: Taken for a ride, Be born, Just apathy, and Spring and a storm.