It's funny how we often become what we hate.

You always hear people say "I strive to be..." or "I wish I could be..." but there always seems to be something crucial they are lacking. Everyone looks up to someone and works to achieve what this person has; but I can't help but wonder how much they are actually trying. When you are giving something everything you have and certain obstacles ( Read more... )

Things were getting better. Everything was going well... But now, every time I close my eyes my vision is torn between the gym floor and the docks, with the same image of my hands clasped over my knee trying to make the pain go away, praying it's only a dream. A bad dream that I will momentarily wake up from and no longer fear. This hasn't ( Read more... )

"It's a sunny day outside
Lovely sunny day outside
Happy butterfly outside
I'm locked up inside
I don't know if I can hear another tale of how amazing you can be"

--Yeah for Dave Navarro.

I'm in a really good mood right now, although today has been kind of shitty. Not particularly bad or anything, just tiring and annoying. Spring break went by so fast it can hardly be considered a break. I hate patterns. Now that school is back, my life is yet again becoming a pattern of school, rowing and sleep. Not that I can complain with ( Read more... )

Valentines Day sucks. And no, it doesn't suck because of the typical girl reason for not liking Valentines Day with the whole "lets go cry and wallow in self pity because we don't have boyfriends" kind of suck, that's just stupid. All that is going through my head right now is "I can't race." The doctor told me so herself just after she told me ( Read more... )

"It is inevitable to be drawn back into human drama. "

Apparently after 2 days of taking nothing but Buckleys and Oregano Oil, they seem to lose their effect.

Lately, I've been finding it hard to trust anyone. I've realized that there is a certain amount of trust someone puts into friendship. Not the sort of "I'm trusting you not to tell my deepest, darkest secrets", but a trust in the friendship itself. I've been wondering if my friends are my friends because they actually enjoy hanging out with me ( Read more... )

So as this new year is upon us I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, as so many people have been trying to figure out lately. I know I want to row but other than that... I have no idea. I suppose thats normal for somebody my age but I want to at least look into something. I was thinking some sort of sound technician. I ( Read more... )