she's just a friend, but dinner was like a first date.

how would anybody even suspect ( Read more... )

apathetic and numb today. uninterested in doing anything. lonely.manic. no cell phone today. i have too much to do today. and i won't do anything. i need help but i don't think i have the time to be helped ( Read more... )

it's snowing. it's april. i know it's not but it feels like a sign.

i can't help myself.

it's perfect.

snow

so slow, soft, beautiful, inevitable, muffled white silence from the heavens.

so today is sunday. i vowed i would do something wickedly fascinating today, get outside...it's almost noon now and i've taken a bubble bath and gotten dressed. i don't know what to do next. maybe i'll walk down to the village, drink some tea, do some reading, walk back, pling away on the guitar for a while-anything to distract me from the fact ( Read more... )

less than a week left. i can't believe i'll be back on friday ( Read more... )

whoa. i feel awake today. really alert. hyper alert. i feel really good =). went to bed at 10 last night. mmmmmmmmmmmm 9.5 hours of yummy sleep.

“What does ‘There is no God’ mean? It means there is no bridle on our instincts, no reward for good or punishment for evil, no virtue, shame, or justice-that we are wolves and she-wolves in heat” -Kazantzakis ( Read more... )

i just ran a mile. i feel a little better.