I do not recall a day where I felt this defeated. To not be able to write a paper due to a mental block is one of the worst feelings I've ever had. That may seem like an over exaggeration, but writing is supposedly my strong suit, yet I can't squeeze out some dumb Sociology paper? Ugh. And on top of that, I have cramps, my room is a wreck (which ( Read more... )

My whole life, I've thought I had something that was different. As the days go by, I realize that I am just like everyone else. Whatever that 'something' was, it's either faded away or was never there to begin with. Feeling like I'm average BLOWS.

For some reason I have always saved my work schedules from the shop. I went through my filing cabinet today and decided that I have no reason to keep them so I'm going to recycle them. But before I tossed them I counted them. I had over 140 schedules filed, many of those being two or three week schedules on each paper. Geez louise. I have had this ( Read more... )

I'm gonna get me one of these:

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-Want to go on a vision quest. I am not sure how serious I am when I think about going on one, but the idea of it is very enticing and intriguing ( Read more... )

I hope none of you ever forget this:
as much tragedy, deceit, horror and pain that this world yields,
the amount of heart-swelling beauty it beholds exceeds that pain boundlessly.

These little spurts of love for life and the glory it bestows are what will get me through my life.

1) "Re: Stacks" - Bon Iver ( Read more... )

Okay, so let me preface the results of this semester by saying this my hardest semester yet and though I did work really hard, I still think I could have worked harder so I'm honestly pretty darn happy with my grades ( Read more... )

But seriously, I can't get these out of my head. They are THAT perfect. The thought of having these boots is distracting me from studying (not like that's very hard - I'm reviewing math. Kill me plz)

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It really bothers me how I am basically incapable of saving money. I know I need to, and I want to so badly, but it feels freaking impossible. I am so tired of wanting. I am trying to remember a time when I didn't want, and I don't know if it ever existed. I have never been deprived in my life, yet I am always wanting more, more, more. Being in my ( Read more... )