What do we deserve?
So where do I start?
So In under 10 days I have the chance to meet my absolute favorite WWE superstar--CHRISTIAN!
I have been following this guy's career for over 5 years now, he was the only reason I watched TNA, I own his DVD, I've seen all of his older stuff from the Brood, to Edge and Christian, to his Intercontinental days, to his feud with Jericho...I probably know more about the guy and his career than he does.
I have so much respect for the guy, I mean I won't lie the guy is gorgeous and i do have a "bit" of a crush on him, but I have so much respect for him. I can't really explain why I took such a liking to him, I think it's because he gets overlooked all the time, but that doesn't stop him from going out there and giving 100% each and every time. He always goes out there and proves everyone wrong, those people who doubt him always end up eating their words, yet he's so humble about it.
So here's the thing? I don't feel like I deserve to meet him! Why? Cause I suck at wrestling training! I just feel like I can't even do a bump right and this guy made it through wrestling training and I'm having trouble learning the first thing....I just feel like I don't deserve to meet him at all...Now true I did pick up lock-ups and headlocks quickly, but it doesn't matter....
Now sure maybe some of it is nerves, I'm afraid he's just gonna laugh at me if he finds out I'm in wrestling training, or worse I was gonna have him sign a quote from my notebook. (I made a notebook full of wrestler's quotes to inspire me, and I was gonna have him sign a quote we got from him), So what if he sees the quote and just laughs at how stupid I am? or even worse, what if I totally do something stupid? Like forget my own name? or forget to ask for a picture? Last october I saw him outside the TNA show here in Vegas, and all I could do is stare at him.
I just wish I didn't suck at wrestling training, I wish I was normal and could pick all these things up quickly like everyone else. Dawn keeps telling me I should meet him, cause I'm improving...I don't know if I believe that or not...but I just feel like such a failure.
I mean, this guy's been through the training and made it big, and I'm having problems learning the bumps! I don't see Christian standing in wrestling training having problems learning the things now do I? I bet he picked it right up! I just feel like a gigantic loser that doesn't deserve to meet a guy as cool as Christian...
But how do you know what you deserve in your life?