Scared to be on "Community"?
Yeah you read it right...
I should be ecstatic that I'm working, and don't get me wrong I'm happy I'm casted and happy I'll be making money. I'm happy it's a show that I've been on before...
But...I'm scared...
Why? Cause this is the 1ST time I have been casted without my sister. My sister was casted back in October on "Community" by her self, and she was fine, but lately we've done all our castings together, and tomorrow...well that's the first time I'll be all by my lonesome. On top of that, it's a location shoot, so I have to drive to the lot, then be shuttled over to location...another first for me.
I'm more nervous than scared. Usually if I'm nervous or scared I can talk to my sister, but tomorrow...I'll be facing it alone. I mean what happens if something horrible happens? who is gonna tell me it's alright? What happens if I'm walking and fall right on my face in front of Joel McHale? Who's gonna grab my fat ass and pull me back to my feet? I'm just nervous...I've never done a casting without her before.
I think I'm more scared because when the lady called to tell me I was casted, she told me the wrong information and when I called my agent to clarify, he seemed a little 'short' with me. Now true it's a busy time of day, and he's a busy man, but now I'm terrified he's gonna fire me, and never cast me again!
I know a stupid worry for just asking a question, when the only reason he fires people is because they don't show up for a casting, they back out of a casting, or they're late BIG TIME for a casting! But I'm terrified.
I guess in honesty I'm afraid of doing something wrong tomorrow and messing everything up for my sister and me. At least with my sister there, I have someone wiser telling me "That's not a good idea" but tomorrow...it's just me...
I'm scared...and now I've realized looking at my Joel Icon isn't helping me...
4AM is gonna come early, but I have a feeling I won't be getting any sleep tonight.
I should be ecstatic that I'm working, and don't get me wrong I'm happy I'm casted and happy I'll be making money. I'm happy it's a show that I've been on before...
But...I'm scared...
Why? Cause this is the 1ST time I have been casted without my sister. My sister was casted back in October on "Community" by her self, and she was fine, but lately we've done all our castings together, and tomorrow...well that's the first time I'll be all by my lonesome. On top of that, it's a location shoot, so I have to drive to the lot, then be shuttled over to location...another first for me.
I'm more nervous than scared. Usually if I'm nervous or scared I can talk to my sister, but tomorrow...I'll be facing it alone. I mean what happens if something horrible happens? who is gonna tell me it's alright? What happens if I'm walking and fall right on my face in front of Joel McHale? Who's gonna grab my fat ass and pull me back to my feet? I'm just nervous...I've never done a casting without her before.
I think I'm more scared because when the lady called to tell me I was casted, she told me the wrong information and when I called my agent to clarify, he seemed a little 'short' with me. Now true it's a busy time of day, and he's a busy man, but now I'm terrified he's gonna fire me, and never cast me again!
I know a stupid worry for just asking a question, when the only reason he fires people is because they don't show up for a casting, they back out of a casting, or they're late BIG TIME for a casting! But I'm terrified.
I guess in honesty I'm afraid of doing something wrong tomorrow and messing everything up for my sister and me. At least with my sister there, I have someone wiser telling me "That's not a good idea" but tomorrow...it's just me...
I'm scared...and now I've realized looking at my Joel Icon isn't helping me...
4AM is gonna come early, but I have a feeling I won't be getting any sleep tonight.