I haven't made a real post yet but as of Halloween everything came together. There were many high points as well as huge disapointments. I am realistic and overall happy ( Read more... )

I wish I could fast forward my life by 10 years.

Friday Night.
My heart is still beating.

Trying to practise our ceremony.
He gets frustrated and instead of slowing down and just practising a few times.. he freaks out. Screams at me and Chris..
takes our wedding rings and storms out the door.
He said he wanted to return them.

umm..

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why am I doing this.

My feels are completly unchanged after 7 years.
I miss you.

I know why amazing people die at the age of 27.

Who wouldn't want to die completely in their prime and when your at tip of your peak.

I like the idea of being able to have choice.

My heart is in two places ( Read more... )

I'm so happy.
I don't care how unrealistic it is.
It's been my escape for the past week or so.
Just thinking, wondering and waiting.

I know in a deep place that like most things.. it's not meant to be.. but that can't stop me from hoping.

<3
I am going to sit in my room.. wrapped in blankets and read.

Damien got on his meds today. He FINALLY started taking them again. He promised that this time, he would stay on them. I know this will take weeks before he is back to his normal self but dear fucking god I couldn't wait another day for him to start ( Read more... )

I couldn't be in a better mood if I tried.
Just saying. :)

Catching up on homework tonight, downloading music.. and I am going to start up my Wii Fit and get my ass kicked.

Sounds like a pretty amazing plan if I say so myself.

Things here at home have calmed down
and I've made some decisions of my own to persue my own happiness from now on.

I am not apologising for the way that he decides to treat me anymore ( Read more... )