문자왔숑~문자왔숑~
용DJ did the "문자왔숑~문자왔숑~" message tone from secret garden on YS today, how cute T-T <3
/inner fangirl battle 시작.
This is random but most of those who are close to me already knew about this & idk how to say it exactly but... I feel really upset when they look at me in that kind of light or tease me about it. It makes me feel really guilty for being such an... unworthy fan.
Heenim. I've liked him for 4 years already. Probably the longest I've ever had interest in someone. I like him for his personality, his hair, his looks, his quirky fashion sense, his everything. I've always asked myself when will I stop with my journey in this fandom & I really have no answer for that. However recently... idk. I'm being totally truthful here. I admit that my feelings for him have been weavering. It's like, I can't find the spark anymore. I still like him but I feel that I've grew to respect him as an important man in my life than spazzing at everything he does or say.
My girls would say that Hyunseung's probably one of the biggest factor detering me from 'worshipping' Heenim. Partially true, I won't deny that. Still, at this point of time, I cannot see how long I will last with liking Hyunseung or if it's just a temporary thing. & it's really true that I cannot find my heart beating exceptionally fast anymore with the things Heenim does or tweets about. It became like "oh... he posted. oh.. he selca-ed" & not "omg he posted omgggggggggggggwtfbbq" kind of feeling.
These days, I just feel irritated & upset when those around me look at me with the "you're no longer an ELF but a B2uty" or "heenim means nothing to you now" look. I know that I've been yapping about b2st & hyunseung nonstop these days... but sometimes it's just hard to control...
Still, I would want to say that SJ is very precious to me. These 4 years had been fruitful and wonderful being an ELF. & Heenim is still the most important guy in my life at this point of time.
But I guess I can't change the way others look at me so I can only learn to take things easily. So what if it seems like I'm ditching Heenim for Hyunseung in other people's eyes, as long as I know that he still has a special spot in my heart, along with sj, then everything will be alright.
Hi Heenim, ilu.
Hi Hyunseung, ilikeyou.
There is still a difference & if it changes in the time to come, then so be it. I can't possibly force myself. (:
/inner fangirl battle 끝!
On a side note, my boys are coming over this weekend for SS3.
I can't wait (: I haven't seen them since June '10... ):
/inner fangirl battle 시작.
This is random but most of those who are close to me already knew about this & idk how to say it exactly but... I feel really upset when they look at me in that kind of light or tease me about it. It makes me feel really guilty for being such an... unworthy fan.
Heenim. I've liked him for 4 years already. Probably the longest I've ever had interest in someone. I like him for his personality, his hair, his looks, his quirky fashion sense, his everything. I've always asked myself when will I stop with my journey in this fandom & I really have no answer for that. However recently... idk. I'm being totally truthful here. I admit that my feelings for him have been weavering. It's like, I can't find the spark anymore. I still like him but I feel that I've grew to respect him as an important man in my life than spazzing at everything he does or say.
My girls would say that Hyunseung's probably one of the biggest factor detering me from 'worshipping' Heenim. Partially true, I won't deny that. Still, at this point of time, I cannot see how long I will last with liking Hyunseung or if it's just a temporary thing. & it's really true that I cannot find my heart beating exceptionally fast anymore with the things Heenim does or tweets about. It became like "oh... he posted. oh.. he selca-ed" & not "omg he posted omgggggggggggggwtfbbq" kind of feeling.
These days, I just feel irritated & upset when those around me look at me with the "you're no longer an ELF but a B2uty" or "heenim means nothing to you now" look. I know that I've been yapping about b2st & hyunseung nonstop these days... but sometimes it's just hard to control...
Still, I would want to say that SJ is very precious to me. These 4 years had been fruitful and wonderful being an ELF. & Heenim is still the most important guy in my life at this point of time.
But I guess I can't change the way others look at me so I can only learn to take things easily. So what if it seems like I'm ditching Heenim for Hyunseung in other people's eyes, as long as I know that he still has a special spot in my heart, along with sj, then everything will be alright.
Hi Heenim, ilu.
Hi Hyunseung, ilikeyou.
There is still a difference & if it changes in the time to come, then so be it. I can't possibly force myself. (:
/inner fangirl battle 끝!
On a side note, my boys are coming over this weekend for SS3.
I can't wait (: I haven't seen them since June '10... ):