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I really don't know what's been up with me lately. I've been in one of my depressed moods. I think it has a lot to do with everything that's going on in the future. Warren is moving out of the barracks. He is always around because he lives next door and soon he won't. Michelle has a b/f and that's great. I don't want to steal any time away from him though so I won't hang out with her as much. Chris is going down range and he is who I spend the majority of my time with. Anyone who knows me knows I hate change and I'm facing a whole lot of it right now. I'm going home for the hoidays and this is the longest I've ever been gone a whole year. Before I left I ran everything and took care of everyone and now I don't have a part other than a spectater. I'm not even the anouncer or anything that stands out. It's really not that bad. None of the things are but still I feel like crap. Chris is going to come back and while he's there he'll write as much as he can and call and miss me just as much as I'll miss him. Michelle is going to go out of her way to make sure I'm ok. She already said she was. Warren will still be there and only a phone call away. My entire family (everyone that means the most to me) will be at the air port to pick me up. They call me all the time to let me know they are counting down the days. I can't wait to be home! Work is stressful and my Spanish final is tomorrow. This one class at a time thing sux ass. I wish I could just shake this bad depressed mood lately. I'm too emotional!!! I almost started crying infront of Michelle the other day. I never cry infront of anyone. The only person that has seen me cry here is Warren and that's too many people for me. Chris was so sweet last night. He held me so tight and really listened to what I was saying like he always does. I really do love him! I don't think he understands just how much.