I sit here in my bed (nothing new) thinking about the dozens of different ways I imagined my life to be at 27 years old (as I magically try not to freak out that in three months I will be 28 ( Read more... )

It is...almost 2am here in Kansas and I'm still awake ( Read more... )

:( Wish people would realize that telling me excitedly about how much fun they are having with each other and exactly what they are doing doesn't make me feel good ( Read more... )

I can hear the thunder rolling outside. It's 1am. I should be asleep. Have to get up for work in the morning ( Read more... )

Trying really hard to keep it together ( Read more... )

I feel like this weekend has pushed me back about fifteen years. Here is how shit works ( Read more... )

I have a HUGE list of people who suck right now. HUGE. Trina sucks. Like - big time. I am so annoyed with her right now. Someone else sucks ass too but I can't say who cause UGH - sometimes I wish I would make this private. Let me just say - it's probably for the best cause I no longer give a shit what they are gonna do. They can go fuck a ( Read more... )

I read some of my old posts yesterday. I have been writing on livejournal for nine years. NINE. Since my senior year of high school. That is INSANE. I have to say...I hope livejournal sticks around too - I couldn't imagine losing nine years of my life if the site went down. I'm glad to see that it is still standing. At this rate...I can't ( Read more... )

I don't know when it started to happen - but I do not like reading old journal posts from the past. Especially on livejournal or my old blogspot accounts. For some reason...it feels like looking into someone's eyes when you can no longer do so. It hurts to read them. It hurts to do so. For some reason...I'm terrified to be reminded of any part ( Read more... )

There are so many things I have forgotten. Growing up isn't everything. Growing up is the end of all things magic. It becomes such a far stretch to pretend. But in the end, pretend, is all we have.