[Silly, that's implying Maka has any sort of rationality about her when it comes to relationships.
Then again...the foolish irrationalities were one of the things she really wanted to let go of when the whole relationship started. Long periods of ignoring, getting angry and arguing, storming out... It wasn't worth the emotional drain.
So eventually, the sound of her voice--albeit thick from the tears welling up--comes through the covers]
[It's silly to be sitting on the floor right now. He stands up and sits back on the bed, one hand almost (just almost) resting on Maka's back.
Verbal affirmations are foreign to him. He's never questioned, never asked for reassurance of someone's feelings. Shinigami are wired to use Soul Perception to understand emotions, not relying on words. Words lie.
At the same time, he knows Maka needs words, needs someone to tell, not just show.]
[This would probably be the part where someone asks how much their significant other loves them and if they'd give up something they're passionate about for them. But to Maka that's a decidedly selfish way of confirming feelings, she wouldn't do it to Kid and she wouldn't want him to do it to her.
Instead--she sits up, tries (halfheartedly) to smooth out her hair and levels a steady look at him before continuing.]
Then promise me that if we ever do end up doing it, it's because we love each other and want to express it that way. Not out of some obligation or pressure from peers. It's...not really something I'm comfortable with, but I know for sure that it should be mutual.
And...talk to me about what's on your mind more, okay? I'm only human, I can't read minds. I'll try to be more open with you, too, I know I have a problem with that.
Then... [He knows this isn't how it should be, but he just isn't interested.] are you fine with it never happening? [He has no interest, he's slightly disgusted by the act, and Shinigami don't reproduce that way anyway.]
[And now this. She says talk more and he thinks that maybe, somehow, he made a mistake. He should never have gotten involved with a human. But he loves her and it's worth the occasional feeling that he will always be alien to her.] I try, Maka.
Yeah...yeah, I'm pretty fine with that. [Actually it's a bit of a relief to her for an entirely silly reason that she wouldn't normally bring up.]
[Although this isn't a normal thing, anyway. Being involved with a god. Sometimes she worries that she'll never understand him, one reason why she always finds it laughable when he says he's not good enough.]
...You don't have to worry about making me happy. You already do that just by being yourself.
It isn't because I don't love you. [Spirit had gone on at great length about how sexual intimacy was an expression of love, and regardless of Maka's stated opinions of the man, children did inherit many subtle opinions from their parents.]
[Because he does. He loves her so much that sometimes he thinks it will break him.
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So that's why I'm asking: what do you care about my stupid feelings?
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Maka... Your feelings are important to me. I care about you! I'm interested in you! You know that...
[Right?
They've had their problems, but Maka knows he cares.
Doesn't she?]
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Then again...the foolish irrationalities were one of the things she really wanted to let go of when the whole relationship started. Long periods of ignoring, getting angry and arguing, storming out... It wasn't worth the emotional drain.
So eventually, the sound of her voice--albeit thick from the tears welling up--comes through the covers]
Do you love me?
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Verbal affirmations are foreign to him. He's never questioned, never asked for reassurance of someone's feelings. Shinigami are wired to use Soul Perception to understand emotions, not relying on words. Words lie.
At the same time, he knows Maka needs words, needs someone to tell, not just show.]
Of course I do. [Quiet, careful.] I love you.
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Instead--she sits up, tries (halfheartedly) to smooth out her hair and levels a steady look at him before continuing.]
Then promise me that if we ever do end up doing it, it's because we love each other and want to express it that way. Not out of some obligation or pressure from peers. It's...not really something I'm comfortable with, but I know for sure that it should be mutual.
And...talk to me about what's on your mind more, okay? I'm only human, I can't read minds. I'll try to be more open with you, too, I know I have a problem with that.
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[And now this. She says talk more and he thinks that maybe, somehow, he made a mistake. He should never have gotten involved with a human. But he loves her and it's worth the occasional feeling that he will always be alien to her.] I try, Maka.
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[Although this isn't a normal thing, anyway. Being involved with a god. Sometimes she worries that she'll never understand him, one reason why she always finds it laughable when he says he's not good enough.]
...You don't have to worry about making me happy. You already do that just by being yourself.
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[Because he does. He loves her so much that sometimes he thinks it will break him.
He loves her and so he will always worry.]
I can always improve.
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[Oh, she snapped again. But the refusal to let the subject rest was starting to become frightening.]
I'm the one that needs improvement here if stupid human impulses are being that much of a burden on you.
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