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The Intimacy Meme
Intimacy is the glue of any relationship, albeit romantic or friendship. It's getting to the root of humanity, and expanding upon ourselves and letting others in.

Rules:
1. Post with your character.
2. Go to rng and roll from 1-6.
3. Post to others.
4. Profit

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7- road trip | if they do sexy tiems, loki could use his magic to hide what they're really doing.

[just_a_relic]

[ he was now helping the avengers locate a destination- not that he was actually the one doing the driving, because he really didn't know how, but he and Thor were sitting together in the back of the midgardian van while two agents were transporting them to the new SHIELD HQ location. Yes, he had to atone for all the trouble he had caused last time. Oh yeah, and he was beginning to call the other his brother again. ]

Brother .. It's so hot in here. I'm beginning to think the midgardian's are trying to torture us.

mmhm :3

[notyet_king]

[he was keeping strict guard over his troublesome brother, as was instructed but he disliked the heat himself, so it was fine to reply -] Bear with it. If you cannot take such little discomfort.. your punishment will finish you.

Re: mmhm :3

[just_a_relic]

[ he narrows his eyes considerably towards the other because he does not like to be reminded of his mistakes, but kindly regards thor as he answers with a gentle voice ]

I can see you're upset with me.

[notyet_king]

Upset. [he repeats it softly, dsibelieving... He doesn't turn to face him but looks outside. It didn't begin to cover it.]

[just_a_relic]

[ loki was beginning to think it was too quick of him to start referring to the older god as his brother. He had thought thor would appreciate such a sentiment of sorts, but now the trickster would only call the other by his given name. He hesitantly places his hand upon thor's own ]

Thor, look at me. You didn't truly believe I would try to kill you, did you?

[ oh yes, he was mentioning the dropping-thor-whilst-in-the-hulk-cage, incident ]

[notyet_king]

[his mouth set at the imploring tone.. but he could never deny his brother. They meant too much to each other for that - or they had done. His gaze is expressionless and tight. He doesn't reply past the slight scoff -] Do not.. pretend you did not mean to.

[just_a_relic]

[ he loves his brother, truly and truthfully does- the raven haired god just has a fucked up way of showing it, like locking you in a cage and hurting you constantly time and time again. But .. This time, something stirred up inside him- pain of the heart. He was quite sure the other has felt this along with dissappointment of him and he didn't like to dwell on such things. Loki answered with a full-apologetic face ]

But I didn't. I know I may not have the best of reputations, but you must believe me when I say that I did not wish to end your existance- [ he bit back the urge to call the god, brother, because honestly he thought it was too late for such things ]

I knew you would free yourself before it would ever reach the ground.

[notyet_king]

Do not pretend - [he denied him once more, looking away, his emotions all in conflict.] - that justifies your actions. It is not only to me - Loki, you have broken all goodness with your actions.

[it didn't matter if it was to him, or no. What of the people he hurt, his friends... Coulson is yet a bitter taste in his mouth. Or perhaps that is his own blood as he worries the inside. Struggling not to face and strike Loki as equally as.. grab and shake him. Move him with violence born of love as well as anger now.

Thor breathed out and shut his eyes, tipping forehead to the glass.. it triggered a memory within him of the cage and his mouth tightened.]

Be silent, Loki. Even now - leave me be.

[who thought this a good idea - him as his guard?]

[just_a_relic]

[ The ache of his heart proved to be ever persistant. If only he could take it all back- oh how he craved he could erase everything he had done. If he could and if it would be fair to the other, loki would erase his brothers memory of him. He wanted to hear that beaming laugh, that twinkle in the eye that spoke nothing but purity and that smile.. He missed his dear brothers smile. If he were to delete any memory of himself, the trickster knew thor would end up happy without him. Loki brought nothing but pain it seems ]

How many times must I apologize until you believe me?

[ his fingers uncurl from his brothers own, looking down at his lap as he replies with an apology- loki never apologizes, but right here right now he was making an exception ]

Thor, I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you. It's alright that you wish for silence, I will grant you it because I deserve to do no less. If I could, I would banish myself from your life. From ever being the cause of your sadness.

[notyet_king]

[it wasn't his apologies he wished for... and if it were possible to erase pain with apology, Thor's would be the first. How had he not known. All that time, hurting his brother through words, actions.. it didn't matter if it were unintentional. He had done it.

He was to blame just as much - for the start of Loki's disgressions if nor the means to the end he seeked. He wondered if it had been worth it. The few laughs at his expense, the wrath of the Chitauri and the power slipped from his brother's grasp... death and pain. What had they left.

Thor shut his eyes, then, to the apology. It was mere words. But they were Loki's words.. and not of silver-tongue charm. They were soft and perhaps even true. His eyes are filled with pain as he turned to look at him. He didn't offer his forgiveness when he had recieved none he could accept himself. His hear ached.]

Loki. [his eyes bid him for this, some secrecy - just for themselves as he leant in closer...]

[just_a_relic]

[ it was foolish of him to have expected the other would welcome him back with opened arms- he had taken his brother for granted and now he was paying dearly for it. He wasn't expecting to be forgiven, the raven haired god just needed his brother to know that he was so terribly sorry. What he did was unforgivable and any wrath thor wished upon him, loki would gladly accept without any remorse. He deserved every painful words, every hateful stare, he even deserved his tongue to be cut off. All this and more. Whence thor looks at him with those painfully sad eyes, loki can see no happiness there. So long as he; loki laufeyson, lived, thor would never be happy again. With an attentive look, the trickster cast a spell to give them such secrecy. ]

Yes?..

[notyet_king]

[his breath leaves him at that returned pain.. he could see Loki, his doubts, wished it had been before now. If he had known sooner - no. If he had understood sooner, then -

Oh, it was nothing to think now. He could do nothing more for himself or for his brother. They were.. gone.

So, the kiss he gives.. is a goodbye more than an urge. If he were to lose Loki in any case.. he had to feel him more acutely than this. If he had to hurt him, so be it. Thor deserved pain from him, also...]

Loki... come. [he could feel the thrum of magic, secrecy through his skin, fingers curling to dark hair as he drug him in. Needing something - anything.]

[just_a_relic]

[ his emotions betray him, just like the lone tear that had started to roll down his face when his brother gave him such a kiss. It spoke with a goodbye that nearly shattered him to pieces of which he could never repair himself again. His pounding heart sounded like that of a drum, so loud that the very man infront of him would most likely hear it, or feel it if nothing else. The fact that he interpreted the meaning of such a kiss, made the younger god desperately cling to the other- not so much cling as trying to reason with the other with a panick. Quickly, loki made their armour magically dissappear and reappear on the floor, this was a time where such armour was of inconvenience. It is this time that the youngest of the two brings their foreheads together ]

No, no, no, no, I know the meaning behind thy kiss, brother. Please don't say it is so.

[notyet_king]

[he feels the lighter fall of his breath, the sorrow in his refusal and yes - Thor frowns. Loki sounds almost... yes, pained. He doesn't want to see this, think on it. He couldn't allow his mind to dwell on it.

His hand against the nape of his neck smoothed slowly down and across his shoulder, curling fingers into his robes gently almost... he shakes his head. Foreheads rubbing slowly together.]

Then don't feel.. and do not think, Loki. [and take this, as it was. He moves to kiss him again and it's rougher, more demanding this time.]

[just_a_relic]

[ as of now he would have retorted with, to not think, would be very much like asking you not to breath. but loki couldn't bring himself to utter such a thing- not because it would destroy the moment, but because he just didn't have the energy to test Thor as of this moment. He didn't think his heart could take it- the fact that thor could not, or chose not to call him brother helped in breaking him further. A long suffering moan escapes his mouth and into his brothers very own as they roughly kissed. Breaking away slightly, only to bring their faces dangerously close yet again, loki utters- ]

Say that of which you have called me countless times before. I feel as if our roles are reversed and I now can truly feel the pain slashing me in the heart with a two-edged sword. Call me the word that have passed past your lips so easily before. Please, brother. I must hear it.

[notyet_king]

My.. [he hesitates, breath scant as he drew back again. It isn't hesitance this time. He could feel his reponse with the kiss and yearned for more. His smile brief to his lips, moving to his... fingers dragging through dark hair, gripping slightly...] My love.

[for he was - he had always been. Whatever dark and twisted becoming that affection was. It was true. He could treat it like a mere word - and then not feel attachment to it. Perhaps Loki would not notice, or care...] Brother.