30. now that it's raining more than ever, know that we'll still have each other

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HURT & COMFORT RP [EXPANDED]
Hurt/Comfort - Hurt/comfort is a fan fiction genre that involves the physical pain or emotional distress of one character, who is cared for by another character. The injury, sickness or other kind of hurt allows an exploration of the characters and their relationship.

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5! and going with the regular!verse

[guriel]

[He hasn't seen his brother in way too long. And yeah, maybe his being here means he's failing -- at least partly -- at the test he's been set. But if he wasn't supposed to be here, he wouldn't have been given the permission to take Leave and show up, so Guriel's going to take that as a sign.]

. . . hey.

WOOT.

[werewolf_hacker]

[Ben's sunk in misery, slouched in a chair with his elbows on the desk and his head buried in his arms. It's all come crashing down on him, and his sense of being alone has crushed him. He can barely even pray anymore, which is what he was doing, or attempting to do, when--

He blinks several times and turns his face toward the voice without lifting his head. One more blink.] Guri?

[And then he buries his head again, shaking it.] Oh, Dad, I've finally cracked for good and all and now I'm hallucinating.

Re: WOOT.

[guriel]

Hey. [Guriel crosses the room and pulls the other chair over to the desk, dropping down to put his arm and a wing around Ben's shoulders.] C'mon, bro, use your nose. Do I smell like a hallucination to you?

[werewolf_hacker]

[Inhaling, Ben makes a broken noise down in his throat and leans hard into that embrace.] I'm sorry I tried I tried really hard but it's all gone cattywampus and strange and I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore and everyone knows that alone is a terrible look for me and this isn't my Pack no matter how much Will tries and I just don't think I can do this anymore, Guri, I just can't and I'm failing and I'm sorry.

[guriel]

Shhh. Shhh, brother mine. [Guriel pulls him closer and rests his chin on Ben's hair.] Who says you're failing, Ben? Who told you that lie?

[werewolf_hacker]

No one has to tell me. I can feel it, in every fiber of my being. I'm angry all the time, I nearly tore one of the Pack's head off the other day because he looked at me funny, I'm relying on a demon for advice and counsel because I don't have anyone else, and the new guy, he tries, I know he does--

But it's not the same.

And this gate thing is freaking me out more and more. You die in the dreams, Guri. And I can't-- [He chokes.] I just can't.

[guriel]

[Guriel tightens his arms and his wings around Ben.] Nothing's set in stone, brother mine. Especially not when it comes to that stupid prophecy.

And no matter what you feel, you're still loyal to Dad and you're still my brother. You're not failing, Ben. Struggling, yeah, I can see that much. They're not the same thing.

[werewolf_hacker]

He hasn't given me a spirit of fear. But I am afraid, so very afraid. I'm supposed to be able to do all things through Him.

I don't know that I can do this anymore.

[guriel]

[Guriel closes his eyes and pours Grace out, surrounding his brother, trying to ease his fears, recalling what Dad said the last time the two of them talked about the situation.] If it were easy, Dad wouldn't ask it of us, Ben. But He loves you, He loves you so very very much. And all He's ever asked is that you keep on loving Him and trying to do what He wills.

[werewolf_hacker]

[Ben nods against him, soaking up the Grace and his brother's love.] And I do, and I'm trying, but I don't know what He wants me to do. Just because the prophecy says the gate comes down doesn't mean it's supposed to. [He huffs out a sound very like a sob.] Have you heard? The prophecy is from a Fallen Seraph. And the fucking gate is in Afghanistan right now.

I can't go back there, Guri.

[guriel]

I know. [Guriel sighs quietly. None of this is his Duty anymore, but it's still hurting his brother, and that makes it very, very hard to remember that.] All Dad wants you to do is love Him and try and love others and to live the best life you can. The gate and the prophecy and everything else, those are just circumstances. That's the real goal of everything in life. And I know you can do that.

[werewolf_hacker]

Yeah. Yeah, I can. [Another jerky nod. Ben feels like he can breathe again for... the first time since he woke up handcuffed in Wynter's house, honestly. Maybe even before that.] Oh, it's good to see you again, brother mine.

[guriel]

[Guriel smiles, warm and sincere and brilliant as a sunrise, and nods his head over Ben's.] Oh, you too. I missed you, I miss you so very very much, brother.

[werewolf_hacker]

[Ben makes a noise down in his throat.] I miss you too. They gave you a day pass, huh? Kind of them. [Guri's mere presence is a balm to Ben's abused spirit, and he's going to bask in it.] The new guy tries, but it's... not the same when I can't see him.

[guriel]

He's a good angel, and I know he's as frustrated by this as you are. [Guri shoots a wave of affection and gratitude in Giborel's direction.] But Dad's with you same here as at home, even if it feels different.

[werewolf_hacker]

Oh, I know, I do.

It's just hard. And I'm tired, Guri. So tired.

[He huffs out a sound that should resemble a laugh.] They drugged me. Once. To try to get me to sleep. You can imagine how well that went.