ups and downs

[mememeems]

i really hate this.

i feel great about a certain relationship i have.

then i feel bad. but then i talk to the person, and i feel good again.

and then we're supposed to talk, but then he leaves early and i can't talk to him.

then i feel bad.

dammit, what's the fucking deal?

i really can't stand this.

Comments

[shyrokstar]

are you happy now?? not dealing with that evil boy??

[mememeems]

well,it appears i have two evil boys!! :P

one in NZ who is never on so i can talk to him. and i fucking miss talking to him and it's really hurting my feelings.

and then the one here, that i wasn't able to talk to for a couple of months. we patched things up and things have been great, better than before, until yesterday. i think it's just remnants of our upset. we were supposed to talk tonight more about it, but he left saying he was tired. i really just think he went off to get high. but i don't know, i'm just assuming. but this, also, is hurting my feelings.

i mean, dammit, it's like, why do i have to get attached to these guys. i mean, honestly, they are just friends. not boy friends. gah!!!!

[shyrokstar]

LOL