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uhg
I cant sleep, i dont eat well at all. Im convincing myself im ugly and stupid and things of that nature without even realizing it, my self-conciousness is overwhelming. She drives me insane with apprarent love for someone that it seems like anyone whom knows him dislikes him. I wake up crying sometimes. I think this is what you get when part of you ( Read more... ) -
Tunnel Of Doom
Yeah, i was ok earlier and then Megan said some stuff to me, i dunno how to feel about it. I dont think shell ever consider me again after that, i should think before i speak alot more i guess. I wish i would have kept my mouth shut. I wish things didnt have to be this way, I wish after high school we'd be together so we wouldnt loose each other, ( Read more... ) -
Ahhh
Hazah to Mr. Stephen King! for his ew articles always make me feel better. SOAD CONCERT TOMORROW.....its been distracting me from her its keepin me goin. And thats important, looking forward to thursday as well, as long as i keep my mind off of her. Then there is friday....and saturday.....yeah big bummer there. ah oh well life goes on. Impending ( Read more... ) -
Worst Monday Ever
its only first hour and yet i wonder how can it possibly get worse still but it does as i sit next to her trying not to communicate as i am worried ill ball my eyes out and never hear the end of it because im a guy and its some sort of sin for men to cry, especially in high school. I asked her today if she really ment what she said in that last ( Read more... ) -
worse
I am going on a steady decline every day that seems to go by makes it a little worsse, not a little a bunch. I hope it stops soon and starts hurting steadily. Last time this happened it changed and we got back together, for some reason this time i dont see that happening even in the slightest...more lyrics ( Read more... ) -
Failure
I was trying to be happy yesterday so that i didnt break down, but i realized that its finally setting in...Not working anymore...Some lyrics ( Read more... ) -
mhmmm
Yeah so Grahms aide wrote a nifty quote on the board today "if the oppisite of pro is con, is the opposite of progress, congress?"
I thought it was cool
i also like to see that they guy in charge of katrina cleanup was fired or "resigned", nice. -
why you cryin?
man oh man, lots of people looking a little on the depressed side latley...bummer. Dont let stuff bring you dont like that friends. Sometimes the world leaves you high and dry or so it seems but you gotta remember there is something inside that no one can ever ever take...no matter who ever tries or how hard they try. Its your hopes and beliefs. ( Read more... ) -
apologies
apologies (tho they are minor in nature) tho any of you whom may have felt i was a little preachy yesterday (dunno if anyone even read it or even felt that way) but to quote a mr cam taylor "ill apologize to you now because later i just wont give a fuck." So anyway here we are still no cake (curses) but hey life goes on....i guess. another coffee ( Read more... ) -
good lord
yeah so we have satalite tv and youd think that with like 180+ channels something would be on but yes im whatching sweet home alabama in horror....not that bad...Lawd i do declare tis boring out here, reading other peoples entrys yadda yadda....hmmm maybe there is more cake....CRAP! BLAST! foiled again. Now what i cant write an entry without cake ( Read more... )