[11] just a little personal venting
I hate this place.
It's everything I never wanted to have again - a cage pretending to be a palace. Smiling people telling me bold-faced lies, bringing up memories I wish I'd forgotten. Impossible hopes twisted into actual possibilities.
I don't need to hide my magic here. There are no magical laws to obey, there is no Idor to remind me of my destiny or my responsibilities. I could openly be a witch.
There are other magic users here. I'm not the last, there are others I can talk to. I'm not alone.
He's here, and he could - we could -
No. He couldn't. He's scared of me. I know his secret - that's the only reason he gives me a second glance. But her - well.
I can't hate her. And I only wish I could hate him. But mainly, I hate that I don't hate either of them.
I hate that I ever got involved in the business of Kaitou KID! It's given me nothing but grief. And for what? For my pride, my arrogance, my ridiculous need to have every man under my sway - no, that's not even my pride, that's my magic! If I didn't have -
No, that's ridiculous. If I didn't have my magic, what would I be?
It's everything I never wanted to have again - a cage pretending to be a palace. Smiling people telling me bold-faced lies, bringing up memories I wish I'd forgotten. Impossible hopes twisted into actual possibilities.
I don't need to hide my magic here. There are no magical laws to obey, there is no Idor to remind me of my destiny or my responsibilities. I could openly be a witch.
There are other magic users here. I'm not the last, there are others I can talk to. I'm not alone.
He's here, and he could - we could -
No. He couldn't. He's scared of me. I know his secret - that's the only reason he gives me a second glance. But her - well.
I can't hate her. And I only wish I could hate him. But mainly, I hate that I don't hate either of them.
I hate that I ever got involved in the business of Kaitou KID! It's given me nothing but grief. And for what? For my pride, my arrogance, my ridiculous need to have every man under my sway - no, that's not even my pride, that's my magic! If I didn't have -
No, that's ridiculous. If I didn't have my magic, what would I be?