the void

[mendedwing]

i feel like alot of my relationships are deteriorating... some not because i dont want them to be there- but because of lack of trust, or lack of effort. im not looking for like consolation or anything but just to send this out into the void... why do people always, almost inevitably, grow apart? have you ever looked at a best friend and thought

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[chriata]

im worried about us going off to college too! i think about it hundreds of times during the day and it sometimes makes me sick to think about whats going to happen next year. ce la vie. i suppose prayer is the best way to prepare for next year. sorry if i dont make any sense! anyways, it was fun seeing you yesterday! love ya! ~christa~

[gunherdown]

dont you hate that there are always a handfull of people that you have this amazing connection with that you will most likely never see again? thats why i dont like this time of year :(

[mendedwing]

you see ive never really been good at keeping friends... making them, that is another story i can make friends like none other but i have a really hard time staying friends with someone for longer than like a month. its ridiculous. but all of these people i love so much and i have the best group of friends ever and it totally sucks that i am hardly ever going to see them. they always say that they are going to come back and visit all the time but it is never as much as they say it will be. its so sad and so disappointing. plus it makes me think of this time two years ago and it was the worst time of myl ife so far lol hopefully it wont be as bad as im thinkin it is going to be.

[gunherdown]

i don't keep friends well either... i think it's because i'm always meeting new people and i go through like phases where i'll hang out with different groups of people, usually the newest group i've latched on to. i've really grown apart from my highland park friends because even since my birthday in february my interests and hobbies and all that stuff have done a complete 180, so i have a lot of different friends at school but none that i really hang out with on a regular basis anymore.

i'm sure things won't be that awful for you though! did most of your friends graduate?

[mendedwing]

ok like not even exxagerating... all but probablyl ike 2 that i hang out with outside of school

[tenorangecats]

i'm guessing you didn't have the faintest thought of me in your mind while writing that entry but for some reason i feel like i should apologize. my mom was asking about you today and i got really sad because i miss being friends with you. stuff won't just change between us because it never happens like that, but i want to make an effort to hang out with you this summer-that is, if you still want to be friends? i lost your phone number, so getting it back will be a great start!
and a note- a few nights of partying and drinking won't change anything for anyone, when it becomes a problem for them, that's when it gets rough. and i don't see that happening to any of your friends because you've been a really good influence on a lot of people and i know that you only choose good people to be friends with. so don't worry about it, just think of all the opportunities they're creating for themselves by getting into these colleges and starting out into their "big people" lives!

hmmm

[akm1329]

i have a feeling you might be referring to me in some of that....i've been a jackass lately, and i apologize to you and to alot of people...sometimes i just suck at being a friend