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[mendedwing]

its not the answer.... im telling you. i know that i may be "unexperienced" and that people think that im "naive" but seriously... there is a difference between not knowing and choosing not to. if i was the one that didnt have a clue then wouldnt i be looking for the answers in the bottom of a bottle or throwing my life away at parties getting

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[gotjulia3]

madi i know exactly how you feel! it seems like just within the last few months my friends have completely thrown their lives away. i wish people would realize that drinking does not take your problems away....theyre still gonna be there when you sober up. but i just wanted to tell you that i know how you feel and im right here with you..you're the best madi!! -julia

[mendedwing]

thanks jules...

[akm1329]

madi what is it going to take for me to realize how insane i am....i wish that i could be as strong as you, i wish i didnt forget who i was or what i am....the worst is waking up in the morning and realizing that you have nothing, because everything that has been given to you, you've fucked it up in one way or another...its like, i can see all the friends that god has given me and the opportunities that have still yet been given to me when i dont deserve them, and i might as well have thrown it all away in the beginning because i'm doing nothing with them, or myself...i hope this is just a phase...

[mendedwing]

a pahse wont end unless you make it end kiddo... i am strong because i know that i have to be for myself and other people... (like you) but you have to stop letting other people influence your desiscions... you need to stick to what you know is right and yoru morals. you cant just throw them out the window any time there is an oppurtunity to. thats not having morals at all. luckily you can always start again. anyway... its up to you and if you choose not to then its your own deal and your own fault kid. no one is going to make your deciscions for you.