one more week of classes. five reading assignments. one oral argument. four exams ( Read more... )

for the first time in a long time, i'm not anxious about anything. all throughout junior high and high school, i had this huge pressure to get perfect grades so that i could get to college. then college followed with the huge pressure to get good grades so i could look good when i wanted to go to grad school or get a job. now, of course, i feel ( Read more... )

i realized the other day that i (and i'm guessing others) rarely think of the year in its entirety. instead, my "years" seem to change as major events happen - anniversaries, moves, new school semesters. i can easily refer to moving to portland as something that happened this year. but it becomes increasingly harder for me to fathom that the ( Read more... )

the connecticut shootings kind of hit me somewhere beyond the usual sadness. when i heard the news, i immediately cried and thought of all the people in my life and how hard it would be to lose any one of them. and then the first real, clear thought after that was: "i need to be a legislator." i've toyed with the idea for a long time, and it's ( Read more... )

four years ago, i watched barack obama win the presidency. i was in bloomington during my first semester at iu. i called my mom, and we stayed on the phone talking about the rare chance that indiana would vote democratic for the first time since 1964. we were about to hang up the phone and turn off the tv, and i looked one more time - indiana ( Read more... )

11.1.12 - realized that zach and i's anniversary years change with the years (first year = 11.1.11, second 11.1.12, third = 11.1.13, etc ( Read more... )

on thursday, i went to dinner and a movie with becky. on the way home, i kinda started sobbing - just kind of a flood of emotions from how unexpectedly sad that movie was to how much i miss not driving into a big city all the time to how i hate always having to use the gps because i don't know where i'm going. so i frustratingly turned off the ( Read more... )

i'm so homesick these days. i can cry at the drop of a hat. and i have to remind myself that it's okay to do that sometimes - maybe it's even necessary. but at the same time, i can't just live in this bubble where i'm constantly sad. i love home - i always will. and there will forever be a huge indiana-shaped hole in my heart while i'm away. ( Read more... )

i keep having all these dreams about people from home. now, i'm not talking about my mom and josh and mitch - i'm talking middle school/high school home. i wake up every day from a dream where i fight for them, with them, about them. and i wake up like it's real ( Read more... )

one more week of work, twelve more days of lafayette. i talked to anna last night about the different stages of our lives - where we're going, where we've been, who we've loved, who we love now. sometimes i feel like i have it all figured out. and that's kind of right now ( Read more... )