i can't get along with boys
My mom and I always take our K Mart breaks outside by the Garden Shop, which works out perfect because that's where Phillipe works. It's not just a scheme to be near Phillipe. I swear my mom has always taken breaks there. So today Phillipe came outside and talked to us. It was great. He's good at making fun of people. That's a good quality to have.
I'm so lame though. I'm super shy around him. I have a hard time even looking at him. I practically look at his shoes while I am talking to him. I wish I were brave. This boy is so great and I don't want to miss my chance to get to know him.
I'm so sad today. I just feel left out. Of everything.
I don't feel like I am important to anyone. I don't play a part in anyone's life but my own. Sometimes I think my mom NEEDS me, but that's different. I don't know. I guess it doesn't really matter. We're all going to die. Why not die lonely? That way no one else is going to have to be sad about your death right? Right.
Fuck, it would be nice to get along with someone for once. I swear I can't get along with any boys at all. I have a little better luck with girls. Eh whatever.
I'm so lame though. I'm super shy around him. I have a hard time even looking at him. I practically look at his shoes while I am talking to him. I wish I were brave. This boy is so great and I don't want to miss my chance to get to know him.
I'm so sad today. I just feel left out. Of everything.
I don't feel like I am important to anyone. I don't play a part in anyone's life but my own. Sometimes I think my mom NEEDS me, but that's different. I don't know. I guess it doesn't really matter. We're all going to die. Why not die lonely? That way no one else is going to have to be sad about your death right? Right.
Fuck, it would be nice to get along with someone for once. I swear I can't get along with any boys at all. I have a little better luck with girls. Eh whatever.