well, here comes my late-night rant again ( Read more... )

Here's something random ( Read more... )

It's funny how little things can change one's perspective of themselves in many very important issues.

the things that one believes so true to be a part of themselves being changed, or questioned by a simple word, gesture, or question.

My mind, tonight, is in such a state of disarray. Just so many things about myself are being questioned, my ( Read more... )

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Gregariousness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Assertiveness |||||||||||| 34% Activity Level |||||||||||| 38% Excitement-Seeking ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Extroversion |||||||||||||||||| 58% Trust |||||||||||||||| ( Read more... )

I wish I could write something profound, meaningful...something with essence...

a song,

a realization.. anything...

but I can't. I'm too drained... I've been too drained for much... it seems as though life has a hold on me tha tis sucking my energy out....draining me away into nothing. soon I'll be a big pile of nothing.

life is a big leech.

I haven't found myself wanting or needing to past much lately... I guess this is sort of a forced entry....I suppose it weighs heavily on the fact that I've got a lot on my mind, I suppose.

You see, in the past week, Redshift has recorded our fist professionally recorded Demo... we're mixing on thursday... should have them by friday or later... I ( Read more... )

My oldest cat, Freddy, dissapeared today. I had had him since I was a baby... not even one yet... he had been really sick today... and he dissappeared.

I think he's passed away. It breaks my heart, really. he was the best cat in the world in my opinion. he was so affectionate, so full of personality, vigor... he was so friendly.

I'll miss him.

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a new semester - a new bunch of challenges for me to overcome. This semester is going to envoke a change in my work habits. I've sworn to myself to work my ass off... or to work like I did in the first semester of grade 9 (86% avg.). this is going to be tough. I'll have to limit all my entertainment (TV, computer, phone) and concentrate more on ( Read more... )

it's almost 2 am. I'm sitting here. can't sleep. not tired. I'm feeling really... funny...

it's the sort of feeling that feels like your insides are bubbling, and twisiting and turning.... it feels like nausea... but it's not... you know?

It's the sort of feeling... that I would prefer to go to sleep and never wake up again....

I hope I'm not ( Read more... )

Lately I've grown very bored of being online. I know this may seem quite ironic. I'm updating in an online journal about how I'm beginning to hate being online but, I guess it's my way of letting people know (especially people who I mainly talk to online) that I'm not going to be online much... at least until I get over this boredom. It's seeming ( Read more... )