I hate not knowing or understanding how I feel. I wish it was all really simple and that I just knew, but I don't know how to get to that point of understanding myself. Is it bad if I doubt this, even a little bit? It's so complicated... and yet so uncomplicated.

I don't really write in here much anymore. I come one and just kind of look around, but I don't really have much to say. I loooove this year so much so far. Stratford trip was AMAZING. I had such a great time. Had auditions and callbacks for drama prod. And now all the parts are decided and I'm really excited to start rehearsals and all that. I've ( Read more... )

It's weird how you can feel like you've been at school for so long even though it's only been like a week. I get so used to it, and I feel like it was never summer. I'm really enjoying this year so far though... even though it has only been a week. Everyone seems so much better this year... like more comfortable with the school and each other. In ( Read more... )

I really can't believe that summer is over. It doesn't really seem real though. School seemed fine. But I was only there for 2 hours, so I can't really tell yet. My classes are good, the people are good. Well mostly... I don't know, I think this year is going to be a good year, but a weird year. A lot of people seem really different. But I guess ( Read more... )

So I came on livejournal and I went to my friends page and the first three posts were actually real people on my friends list thing! Usually it's all stuff about The OC... so that made me happy. Yeah ( Read more... )

i was bored tonight so i did this really long survey thing... sigh...

( it's here... )

so monday was my birthday. happy birthday to me. the morning was the worst birthday morning ever in the history of all my birthdays. i woke up crying? i really have no idea why, but i guess my dream was sad or something. so that wasnt too too good. but this was at like 8:30 and i wanted to be awake for 8:42 because that's when i was born and i ( Read more... )

i just realised that i haven't written in here since i got back. i got back like a week ago... but i guess i've just been too busy to write anything! ahha. hardly. so anyways, my trip was AMAZING! cheticamp is by far my favourite place ever. i might write more about it later... but i miss it soooooo much right now. i think ottawa is too big, and ( Read more... )

i got back from red pine yesterday. it was such a good week! mikaela came with my family and that was fun. and mackenzie came up for a few days to see marina. it was kind of weird because all the LIT's were younger than us because we are actually supposed to be one staff except that we arent 16 until august... but it was still fun. we got to hang ( Read more... )

i really wish i had something interesting to say. but i don't.