A question of trust
Hi everyone, tis just me again.
Have you ever noticed how trust is such a subtle thing? How many levels it crosses and how levels of trust can be exclusive. I mean the other day someone just handed me the eys to their car without a second thought, yet that same person didn't trust me enough to stand up properly. We were diving and getting kit organised takes a lil prep. As he was going down furst he gave me they keys to his car happily, yet later when we were exiting the water (over rocks and in swell) he didn't trust that I could look after myself and the gear I had. He kept trying to help, which was nice, but it kept throwing me off balance as I didn't know what he was about to do.
I get teh same at work, no one trusts the stuff I know, even in things I have done for ages. Networking is something that, while not perfect at, I do know a fair deal about and others at work don't even run networks. Yet They will be the ones that are asked fur information. Even if someone does ask me fur help the furst thing I see them do is go and check with someone else. :(. I'm sure I know something useful, but I'm having troube discovering what. On top of this I can;t think of a single idea that I have had that has really workked well, which is not giving me a lot of comfort about my plans of going to Uni. Any kind of creative project dies before I start. It seems that the only thing I have any talent for is sleeping.
I've been tweaking my LJ a touch, so I've prolly broken that too, if something looks odd can ya let me know so that I can fix it. Comments here or [removed]
mebbe I'll get around to doing a lil more work on my site, but I'd have to have some kinda skill to do that.
From Mer.
Useless, talentless phin.
Have you ever noticed how trust is such a subtle thing? How many levels it crosses and how levels of trust can be exclusive. I mean the other day someone just handed me the eys to their car without a second thought, yet that same person didn't trust me enough to stand up properly. We were diving and getting kit organised takes a lil prep. As he was going down furst he gave me they keys to his car happily, yet later when we were exiting the water (over rocks and in swell) he didn't trust that I could look after myself and the gear I had. He kept trying to help, which was nice, but it kept throwing me off balance as I didn't know what he was about to do.
I get teh same at work, no one trusts the stuff I know, even in things I have done for ages. Networking is something that, while not perfect at, I do know a fair deal about and others at work don't even run networks. Yet They will be the ones that are asked fur information. Even if someone does ask me fur help the furst thing I see them do is go and check with someone else. :(. I'm sure I know something useful, but I'm having troube discovering what. On top of this I can;t think of a single idea that I have had that has really workked well, which is not giving me a lot of comfort about my plans of going to Uni. Any kind of creative project dies before I start. It seems that the only thing I have any talent for is sleeping.
I've been tweaking my LJ a touch, so I've prolly broken that too, if something looks odd can ya let me know so that I can fix it. Comments here or [removed]
mebbe I'll get around to doing a lil more work on my site, but I'd have to have some kinda skill to do that.
From Mer.
Useless, talentless phin.